Dear future husband, I stopped waiting for you...

I stopped waiting for you to make my heart sing. 

I stopped waiting for you to make me smile the brightest. 

I stopped waiting for you to make me know that I'm loved. 

I stopped waiting for you to make my spirit soar high up above. 

I stopped waiting for you to make me safe and secure. 

I stopped waiting for you to have an adventure.  

I stopped waiting for you to live out my purpose. 

I stopped waiting for you to be outward-focused. 

I stopped waiting for you to make me complete. 

I stopped waiting for you to make me so "kilig". 

I stopped waiting for you just to have a company. 

I stopped waiting for you just to cease being lonely. 

I stopped waiting for you to open my bottled water.   

I stopped waiting for you to shower my special days with flowers. 

I stopped waiting for you to know that  I'm beautiful. 

I stopped waiting for you to live life to the full. 

All because Jesus came

Jesus came and this heart knew completion. 

Jesus came and  this heart was filled with all the "kilig". 

Jesus came, and  this heart just overflows. 

Jesus came, and I'm just too in awe. 

Then I started waiting,
Yes, I am waiting...

 on Him.

I am waiting for His promise.

You're His promise to be fulfilled.

And I am utterly excited.

I'm excited to know you.

I'm excited to serve you. 

I'm excited to listen to you. 

I'm excited to pray for you in person. 

I'm excited to encourage you. 

I'm excited to be proud of you. 

I'm excited to believe in you and with you.

I'm excited to help you.
I'm excited to submit to your leadership. 

I'm excited to support you and your calling. 

I'm excited to glorify God with you. 

Happy Heart's Day

P. S.

Pursue Jesus.
Serve. 

Love,
your future wife 

Only One Life (a poem)

Awe-inspiring  poem by C. T. Studd (an evangelist and a missionary to China in the 1800s). :") 

Only One Life

By C.T. Studd

Two little lines I heard one day,

Traveling along life’s busy way;

Bringing conviction to my heart,

And from my mind would not depart;

Only one life, ’twill soon be past, 

Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, yes only one,

Soon will its fleeting hours be done;

Then, in ‘that day’ my Lord to meet,

And stand before His Judgement seat;

Only one life,’twill soon be past,

Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, the still small voice,

Gently pleads for a better choice

Bidding me selfish aims to leave,

And to God’s holy will to cleave;

Only one life, ’twill soon be past,

Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, a few brief years,

Each with its burdens, hopes, and fears;

Each with its clays I must fulfill,

living for self or in His will;

Only one life, ’twill soon be past,

Only what’s done for Christ will last.

When this bright world would tempt me sore,

When Satan would a victory score;

When self would seek to have its way,

Then help me Lord with joy to say;

Only one life, ’twill soon be past,

Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Give me Father, a purpose deep,

In joy or sorrow Thy word to keep;

Faithful and true what e’er the strife,

Pleasing Thee in my daily life;

Only one life, ’twill soon be past,

Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Oh let my love with fervor burn,

And from the world now let me turn;

Living for Thee, and Thee alone,

Bringing Thee pleasure on Thy throne;

Only one life, ’twill soon be past,

Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, yes only one,

Now let me say,”Thy will be done”;

And when at last I’ll hear the call,

I know I’ll say “twas worth it all”;

Only one life,’twill soon be past,

Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Photo by Taylor Ann Wright on Unsplash

Heids

A great woman of God 

It was the last day in the office of this woman who's faithful
I never thought this could be this painful
Our eyes still hurt and it was so wonderful
Oh! At the same time, I'm sad and grateful


Sad that I'll cease to be with her everyday
Grateful that our friendship happened anyway
I'll try to be happy in my classes today
Knowing that hugging her's just a prayer away


I'll miss her hands on my hair and face
Her make up skill, my waterfall and all other braids
I'll certainly miss all her encouragements
and of how confident she is that our needs will be met

What a privilege to witness her servant heart 

I can declare that she's really set apart

I can't help but ask "Why is it Dad that we have to part?" 

He answered with a comfort that in Him,

we'll never be apart

Heids

I'll always admire how you listen to our God
I know you'll continue to shine for our Dad
Your strength will still be found on the One who shed His blood
May you just always be secured in His great love


Heids

Thank you for helping my dream come true
You made it possible for me to be Fuu!
Thank you for believing for my next season too!
Please don't forget to be in my pre-nup uy!

Heids

 I love you to bits and for me, you're so BTS!!!!

Beautiful.
 Talaga.

 Sobra.

When we shared the Gospel together (sya sa Words, sa powerpoint ako, este taga drawing ng bridge haha)!!! 

Ilahui (We love Cubao? haha) 

Coco!!!!

Ilahui

when we walked in the rain!!!

before a holiday

Oh come let us adore Him!

and Ilahui ulit

BTS girls. hahaha

What a privilege to look at God in your life :") 

It was just a dream

Tonight was a dream

Yesterday was... 

It's just a thought. 

It's all "who would've thought?" 

Encouragements and Greetings

Questions and service 

Endings and Beginnings 

It's pouring and our calling 

Directions, steps and care

I don't care. Strong right? It's okay. 

Mindful. Grateful. 

I was talking to Daddy. It's amazing how He kept my heart together.

How I was still allowed to breathe, to laugh, to listen and to speak

When I thought you didn't see, you did. 

When I can't say it, you said it.  (There were times I was wondering how you could say those things?HAHAHA) 

I didn't think you'll come but you came. 

It was just a dream. 

It was just a dream. 

How can it be real? 

Is it real? 

Yes, it is..

but it's still a dream.

Time is Coming

Time is coming 

but I shouldn't be running

All I am I am laying 

To the One who'll do the slaying 

When my heart's  about to shatter 

Your Word never falter 

Fortress' found under Your feather 

there You hold me together

It's the season for this writer 

Of knowing You're a good  grower  

Of knowing You're a good Father 

Full of love that lasts forever

I can now stop mumbling 

Enjoy life with humming

A lot of things are happening

I just really miss writing

When

When my imperfection met His perfection

When my flaws met His flawlessness

When my doubts met Him who perfects faith 

When my insecurities met Him who says who I am 

When my weakness met His strength 

When my brokenness met His wholeness

When my unfaithfulness met His faithfulness

When my past met His plans and future for me 

falling in love loving women falling in love with Him

She's so simple, so pretty. 

She smiles but it's empty. 

She needs a hug, a company. 

She needs strength, love, security, joy,  identity. 

She needs Jesus really. 

I've been longing to share Him to her. 

What-a-life it would be for her.

 I know He's the only solution

          to all her pain and  confusion. 

I'm excited for what she'll become!

Yes, a  woman after God's heart will come. 

She's broken and breaking within 

Got to be with her again and listen 

Come on Holy Spirit! 

Let's encourage her and pray! 

Just when I thought it's all over,

She read out a reviewer 

A  door was suddenly opened

I just find myself sharing the Gospel!

Heaven rejoices as she accepted

Our Lord Jesus Christ and His blood shed

I declare peace and wholeness for her heart 

I'm sure though that His love will never part

She' s so simple, so pretty

She smiles and  it's not empty 

She got a hug, a company

She found strength, love, security, joy, identity 

Jesus' all she needs really

What-a-privilege, what-a-joy to be used by Him 

 I'm falling in love loving women and may they all fall in love with Him.

- ycah padayao (September 23, 2016) 

Goodbye David v. 2. 0

Appa,

tears are about to say hello

Because he's here or because I'm alone

Yeah right Dad I'm not

yeah right Dad forget the past

Wait. That's what You said

You're doing something

Something beyond what's in my head

Something better than the dream

Someone better than the man there

Some years ago, Acel said goodbye to Danny

Now I should have the courage to let go and still be merry

Not him or my feelings is to be elevated

My heart be secured to our Lord and be guarded

Goodbye David

He'll never know how much he meant to me

Goodbye

He'll never know how much he hurt me

May these feelings be gone..

These are meant for His man.

These are meant for MOG.

A Line a day 2016 Journal

I would really really, really  love to have this journal!!! This is a journal project of my girl crush Ms. Rica Peralejo - Bonifacio.

Here are some important things to know about it:

• 62 leaves
• 3.5 x 8″
• 115 GSM (it works with fountain and calligraphy inks and pens!)
• hardcover
• black spring bound
• back to back, dated pages for 2016
• layout and lettering by Elle Battung
• 21 quotes are actually lines are examples of how a single string of words can catch the spirit of an entire story
• 21 lines come from a variety of literary sources like a book on French parenting, one on English lessons, verses from the Bible and from Homerian classics, Milton and Shakespeare!

 Awesome right? That is why this morning,   I brave myself to join her give away contest. :)

Here are the mechanics:


Tell me why A LINE A DAY 2016 is a great gift idea.
Post answer on your social media timelines, with a photo of journal. (You may grab one of those you see here.)
Add this link: http://www.ricaperalejo.ph/2015/a-line-a-day-2016-price-and-preordering-process/ so people who would like to order can be informed about the process.
Make sure you use official hashtag #linesanddays so I can monitor your entries!


Ta-daaahh! And I posted this on my instagram and facebook accounts:


Dear Christmas giver,

Don't be so confused anymore what to give your dear friend here.

Love of journaling is evident. Hear, hear!
Capturing little moments?
What more capturing little witty thoughts?
No pressure at all.
A line a day would do.

My 2016 would be so much awesome with this A LINE A DAY 2016 .
Life is worth documenting in this cute and easy way  dear!

What are you waiting for? Click the link over here: http://www.ricaperalejo.ph/2015/a-line-a-day-2016-price-and-preordering-process/

It's so easy you see?
Thanks in advance for your generosity!

Love,
Ycah.

  #linesanddays

Even if I win or not, it's still great to help her (somehow) to promote this wonderful project! :)

The Poem I wish to Write

The poem I wish to write
For You, I just want to be right
To be as lovely and colorful like the daisies
To sparkle like fairies in their Pixies

No need to try hard remembering the bliss
Being with You who's faithful with every promise
Shines so  bright like the stars in the darkest depth
With You Abba by my side,we even overcame death!

I'm now in the third stanza, oh! What-a-moment!
I don't know if it's allegory, haiku, ode or sonnet
Thrilled, here's the loved, saved-by -Your-grace me
Jesus how beautiful Your love that forever set me free

Every stroke, erasure, curve , words I offer
For You took notice, behold, chosen and prefer
This little girl in the bedroom that seem never to get better
Having You in this lifetime make everything just the Best, Father

The poem I wish to write
For You, I just want to end right
Two minutes, I don't need to think twice
Everything's for Your glory, may Your Name be lifted High! :)