I'm in awe of how Jesus bought me and how he made me free.
In awe of how loved I am and how He secures me.
In awe of His favor in victories.
In awe of His power and comfort in challenges.
In awe of the possibility of Him using me more for His glory.
In awe of all that He is. Thank you for visiting! May this blog inspire you to be so in awe of Him too!
Most cliches are being so real in my life , there are lessons that I want so much to embrace and treasure in my heart and there's a new revelation that makes me repent.
- Cliche's being so real in my life:
Jesus is everything.
Jesus is our all in all.
A life that's fully surrendered to Christ.
Jesus is in full control of my life.
Fully trust in Him.
All I am for You.
Take it all, take it all.
Only Jesus.
He completes.
He is our sole completion.
You can only be complete in Jesus.
Everything you need as a woman is found in Christ.
Jesus is THE ONE.
I am totally surrendered to Jesus.
Everything. All in all. Only One. The First. All. Fully. Totally. Sole completion.
Those sayings and words sound so familiar and all this time, I thought I grasp
them well.
I thought I'm doing good in this, but not really. I realized that I'm still learning
and by His grace, it's becoming real. Like a flower's petals that bloom in it's time.
In the past, I had the tendency to just fit Jesus into my life, but now I realized that I should be building my life around Him. That He really got to be the reason for living. Learning about the brevity of life made me think of my life and my purpose more. In conclusion, life is still and will always be about Him.
Jesus, be my everything.
- Lessons that I want so much to embrace and treasure in my heart:
-Outward-focused life
When I'm so focus with myself, my problems, my issues, my pain, I noticed that I was not being productive and it feels like I'm not living out my purpose. God just recently opened my eyes to see the need of other people. I happened to stumble upon stories of some Christian Women in history who changed the world through their outward-focused life. Women like Elisabeth Elliot, Carrie Ten Boom, Sarah Edwards and Amy CarMichael inspires me in serving more and in doing more. Their lives are really His and His purposes. They loved Him and others so much and made a great impact in lives of people. I loved this part while reading about the life of Amy CarMichael (a missionary to the children in India in the 1900s):
"When the children were asked what drew them to Amy, they most often replied 'It was love. Amma (Amy) loved us".
Their lives and situation were not perfect but they trusted God and allowed Him to use them. Oh to have an outward-focused life!
- WOW Project
This stands for Woman of Word Project.
We're learning about the Bible (it's authority etc.) these days in the church and the importance of meditating His Word was pounded on me. I learned that meditating is also repeating and memorizing. Thus, it became goal to memorize at least one verse a week.
I'm happy that last January I memorized the following:
Ephesians 2:10
For we are God's masterpiece. Created anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.
Ephesians 3:20
Now all glory to God who is able according to His mighty power at work within us to infinitely accomplish more than we might ask or think.
Colossians 3:16
Let the Word of Christ dwell in your richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all truth, singing hymms, psalms, spiritual songs with thanksgiving to God in our hearts.
Revelation5:9b
For you were slaughtered and your blood has ransomed people for God from every tribe, language, people and nation.
This is not just for the sake of memorizing it is for the sake of future use. I'm also learning that His word is meant to be used. It's not to be displayed. After all, His word is our Spirit's Sword. We fight the lies using them and grow more in the knowledge of Him.
Let's be women of the word yeah?
-Life is Short
Finding it hard to breathe sometimes, my grandmother's wake, a booklet entitled "Life is Short (enjoy mo ang buhay)" by William Girao and a talk in our Victory Group in the office about the brevity of life made me think more about life, my purpose and what I'm doing about it. It made me long to prioritize the activities that will just impact the eternal destiny of a person. I'm praying to share the Gospel more and to serve more. Nawa ang buhay ko'y maging gamit na gamit Nya! Amen!
New revelation that makes me repent:
Proverbs 31: 12
Oh how I'm doing my MOG harm all this time.
Thinking and longing for someone else other than Him and him is not honoring at all. Imagine talking about your man about another man right? oh oh. I've been writing to MOG about my crush weeks ago and God just made me realized that it's not right. "All the days of her life" means even today, I've got to honor him. Yes, it's permissible to have a strong crush on someone today but is it beneficial? I know it isn't. It just make me have unnecessary kilig , thoughts and pain. HUHU. Nothing against crushes it's just that, I noticed it's not good for me. Learning to just go and focus more on what He wants me to do in this season.
I know it's easier said than done (like naiisip ko pa din si crush at times, I have to just snap it and focus my thoughts on Him and talk to Him) I'm just really clinging to His grace in all these.
After all, all things are possible in His Name. :")
So there, I pray that the cliches that I mentioned above to be more real in my life , for the lessons to be embraced well and for my repentance to be proven true.
"Which of you if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask Him!" - Matthew 7: 9-11
This is what Dad told me today, after crying out my fears to Him. There are some happenings that made me fearful these days. Natatakot ako na hindi ma meet yung mga non-negotiables ko when it comes kay Man of God. I felt insecure again. There are lies in my head saying na it's impossible to have a man like him (with my non- negotiables) , na hindi kagaya nya ang ibibigay ni Lord, kaya dapat tanggapin ko na lang kung sino man ang darating, kahit pa ayaw ko sa tao na yun.
Obviously a lie right? Pero napaniwala ako. And it's 'been so hard. Feeling ko kasi kapag may inayawan ako na guy or someone, I'm being judgmental. I'm praying na hindi maging ganon. Na tama pa din ang heart ko in case mam babasted ako (naks). No bitterness just pure conviction lang na I'm believing for God's best for me.
I'm amazed on how He lift me up in times na nagiging OA na ako talaga. Kapag nawawala ako sa focus ko (which is Sya) and all. :)
So ladies and gentlemen, here are my so far Non-negotiables:
Loves Jesus more than me or anyone else From Victory / Same Church Discipler Listener Almost the same age as mine Leader Loves to pray Pleasing to my eyes
Loves to pray or an Intercessor.
Recent lang to sa list since, when I was travelling to my hometown, I read a verse na parang na impress lang na regarding my Man of God sya hehehe. It's 1 Kings 13:6
Then the king said to the man of God, “Intercede with the Lord your God and pray for me that my hand may be restored.” So the man of God interceded with the Lord, and the king’s hand was restored and became as it was before.
Hmmm...an Intercessor and has a gift of Healing? :)
Not "WEEEHhHH?" but "WOOOOAAAHH" is the response to that.
Loves Jesus more than me or anyone else? From Victory / Same Church? Discipler? Listener? Almost the same age as mine? Leader? Loves to pray? Pleasing to my eyes?
Not "WEEEHhHH?" but "WOOOOAAAHH" is the response to that.
Whatever happens, alam na this. No compromise.
Thank You Daddy!!!!!
P.S. (note to MOG):
Haaayyy I'm so excited to meet you. By Daddy's grace, I will guard my heart. :)
I am nothing.
I am unworthy.
I am meant for something less.
I am not important.
I am not significant.
I would always be out-of-place.
I would always be less.
I can never be enough.
I am not beautiful.
I am not good at heart either.
I'm not precious.
I am just ordinary.
I am insecure.
I am trying-hard.
I am not neat.
I am not that smart either.
I am a burden.
I am desperate.
I am shy.
I am afraid.
I'm the ugliest when I'm laughing.
No one would look at me as if I'm somebody special.
No one would like me.
No one would love me.
Because of these thoughts, I just know that the enemy is stealing my hope in me. There are times, that I would have doubts whether it's really possible to be free from that identity of mine when I was still lost. They would creep in and eventually leave a scar in my heart. How did I have those thoughts anyway? Maybe because of how I was treated or maybe because of how I treated myself.
But because of how Jesus treated me, I have my hope again. Everything just turn around. Despite of all my limitations, I know He's able. He's teaching me to become like Him day-by-day. One of the "Him" that He wants me to be is.. the revelation that "He loves me. No matter what." Thus, I must love myself too.
I read a quote on tumblr before which goes like this (I'm not that sure), "Love yourself so that we can have something in common."
I am nothing. I am unworthy. I am meant for something less. I am not important. I am not significant. I would always be out-of-place. I would always be less. I can never be enough. I am not beautiful. I am not good at heart either. I'm not precious. I am just ordinary. I am insecure. I am trying-hard. I am not neat. I am not that smart either. I am a burden. I am desperate. I am shy. I am afraid. I'm the ugliest when I'm laughing. No one would look at me as if I'm somebody special. No one would like me.
No one would love me.
Time to Believe Him who says I'm beautiful and precious.
With this new me, I just know that I can be secured. I don't need to be deperate, I don't need to dread in waiting for my MOG.
I just know that he will pursue me no matter what because he will see me in His eyes. :)
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails...
But I want to know
Did I really fall in love?
I wonder.
I mean "love" here for the "romantic" side of me. hehehe.
You know, I had tons of crushes before. An even now, being a girl, sometimes I just got really attracted.
I had a 5 year crush on someone.
I also admired one of my Senior in High School.
or even a friend who's really into music.
I profess someone as my future husband when I was in grade school.
I even followed someone anywhere and chose the course in college because I think that's the nearest to his.
Though they are pretty much special, I don't think I loved them. Sobrang reserved talaga ako for my Man of God (MOG) hahahaha.
Most cliches are being so real in my life , there are lessons that I want so much to embrace and treasure in my heart and there's a new revelation that makes me repent.
- Cliche's being so real in my life:
Jesus is everything.
Jesus is our all in all.
A life that's fully surrendered to Christ.
Jesus is in full control of my life.
Fully trust in Him.
All I am for You.
Take it all, take it all.
Only Jesus.
He completes.
He is our sole completion.
You can only be complete in Jesus.
Everything you need as a woman is found in Christ.
Jesus is THE ONE.
I am totally surrendered to Jesus.
Everything. All in all. Only One. The First. All. Fully. Totally. Sole completion.
Those sayings and words sound so familiar and all this time, I thought I grasp
them well.
I thought I'm doing good in this, but not really. I realized that I'm still learning
and by His grace, it's becoming real. Like a flower's petals that bloom in it's time.
In the past, I had the tendency to just fit Jesus into my life, but now I realized that I should be building my life around Him. That He really got to be the reason for living. Learning about the brevity of life made me think of my life and my purpose more. In conclusion, life is still and will always be about Him.
Jesus, be my everything.
- Lessons that I want so much to embrace and treasure in my heart:
-Outward-focused life
When I'm so focus with myself, my problems, my issues, my pain, I noticed that I was not being productive and it feels like I'm not living out my purpose. God just recently opened my eyes to see the need of other people. I happened to stumble upon stories of some Christian Women in history who changed the world through their outward-focused life. Women like Elisabeth Elliot, Carrie Ten Boom, Sarah Edwards and Amy CarMichael inspires me in serving more and in doing more. Their lives are really His and His purposes. They loved Him and others so much and made a great impact in lives of people. I loved this part while reading about the life of Amy CarMichael (a missionary to the children in India in the 1900s):
"When the children were asked what drew them to Amy, they most often replied 'It was love. Amma (Amy) loved us".
Their lives and situation were not perfect but they trusted God and allowed Him to use them. Oh to have an outward-focused life!
- WOW Project
This stands for Woman of Word Project.
We're learning about the Bible (it's authority etc.) these days in the church and the importance of meditating His Word was pounded on me. I learned that meditating is also repeating and memorizing. Thus, it became goal to memorize at least one verse a week.
I'm happy that last January I memorized the following:
Ephesians 2:10
For we are God's masterpiece. Created anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.
Ephesians 3:20
Now all glory to God who is able according to His mighty power at work within us to infinitely accomplish more than we might ask or think.
Colossians 3:16
Let the Word of Christ dwell in your richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all truth, singing hymms, psalms, spiritual songs with thanksgiving to God in our hearts.
Revelation5:9b
For you were slaughtered and your blood has ransomed people for God from every tribe, language, people and nation.
This is not just for the sake of memorizing it is for the sake of future use. I'm also learning that His word is meant to be used. It's not to be displayed. After all, His word is our Spirit's Sword. We fight the lies using them and grow more in the knowledge of Him.
Let's be women of the word yeah?
-Life is Short
Finding it hard to breathe sometimes, my grandmother's wake, a booklet entitled "Life is Short (enjoy mo ang buhay)" by William Girao and a talk in our Victory Group in the office about the brevity of life made me think more about life, my purpose and what I'm doing about it. It made me long to prioritize the activities that will just impact the eternal destiny of a person. I'm praying to share the Gospel more and to serve more. Nawa ang buhay ko'y maging gamit na gamit Nya! Amen!
New revelation that makes me repent:
Proverbs 31: 12
Oh how I'm doing my MOG harm all this time.
Thinking and longing for someone else other than Him and him is not honoring at all. Imagine talking about your man about another man right? oh oh. I've been writing to MOG about my crush weeks ago and God just made me realized that it's not right. "All the days of her life" means even today, I've got to honor him. Yes, it's permissible to have a strong crush on someone today but is it beneficial? I know it isn't. It just make me have unnecessary kilig , thoughts and pain. HUHU. Nothing against crushes it's just that, I noticed it's not good for me. Learning to just go and focus more on what He wants me to do in this season.
I know it's easier said than done (like naiisip ko pa din si crush at times, I have to just snap it and focus my thoughts on Him and talk to Him) I'm just really clinging to His grace in all these.
After all, all things are possible in His Name. :")
So there, I pray that the cliches that I mentioned above to be more real in my life , for the lessons to be embraced well and for my repentance to be proven true.
"Which of you if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask Him!" - Matthew 7: 9-11
This is what Dad told me today, after crying out my fears to Him. There are some happenings that made me fearful these days. Natatakot ako na hindi ma meet yung mga non-negotiables ko when it comes kay Man of God. I felt insecure again. There are lies in my head saying na it's impossible to have a man like him (with my non- negotiables) , na hindi kagaya nya ang ibibigay ni Lord, kaya dapat tanggapin ko na lang kung sino man ang darating, kahit pa ayaw ko sa tao na yun.
Obviously a lie right? Pero napaniwala ako. And it's 'been so hard. Feeling ko kasi kapag may inayawan ako na guy or someone, I'm being judgmental. I'm praying na hindi maging ganon. Na tama pa din ang heart ko in case mam babasted ako (naks). No bitterness just pure conviction lang na I'm believing for God's best for me.
I'm amazed on how He lift me up in times na nagiging OA na ako talaga. Kapag nawawala ako sa focus ko (which is Sya) and all. :)
So ladies and gentlemen, here are my so far Non-negotiables:
Loves Jesus more than me or anyone else From Victory / Same Church Discipler Listener Almost the same age as mine Leader Loves to pray Pleasing to my eyes
Loves to pray or an Intercessor.
Recent lang to sa list since, when I was travelling to my hometown, I read a verse na parang na impress lang na regarding my Man of God sya hehehe. It's 1 Kings 13:6
Then the king said to the man of God, “Intercede with the Lord your God and pray for me that my hand may be restored.” So the man of God interceded with the Lord, and the king’s hand was restored and became as it was before.
Hmmm...an Intercessor and has a gift of Healing? :)
Not "WEEEHhHH?" but "WOOOOAAAHH" is the response to that.
Loves Jesus more than me or anyone else? From Victory / Same Church? Discipler? Listener? Almost the same age as mine? Leader? Loves to pray? Pleasing to my eyes?
Not "WEEEHhHH?" but "WOOOOAAAHH" is the response to that.
Whatever happens, alam na this. No compromise.
Thank You Daddy!!!!!
P.S. (note to MOG):
Haaayyy I'm so excited to meet you. By Daddy's grace, I will guard my heart. :)
I am nothing.
I am unworthy.
I am meant for something less.
I am not important.
I am not significant.
I would always be out-of-place.
I would always be less.
I can never be enough.
I am not beautiful.
I am not good at heart either.
I'm not precious.
I am just ordinary.
I am insecure.
I am trying-hard.
I am not neat.
I am not that smart either.
I am a burden.
I am desperate.
I am shy.
I am afraid.
I'm the ugliest when I'm laughing.
No one would look at me as if I'm somebody special.
No one would like me.
No one would love me.
Because of these thoughts, I just know that the enemy is stealing my hope in me. There are times, that I would have doubts whether it's really possible to be free from that identity of mine when I was still lost. They would creep in and eventually leave a scar in my heart. How did I have those thoughts anyway? Maybe because of how I was treated or maybe because of how I treated myself.
But because of how Jesus treated me, I have my hope again. Everything just turn around. Despite of all my limitations, I know He's able. He's teaching me to become like Him day-by-day. One of the "Him" that He wants me to be is.. the revelation that "He loves me. No matter what." Thus, I must love myself too.
I read a quote on tumblr before which goes like this (I'm not that sure), "Love yourself so that we can have something in common."
I am nothing. I am unworthy. I am meant for something less. I am not important. I am not significant. I would always be out-of-place. I would always be less. I can never be enough. I am not beautiful. I am not good at heart either. I'm not precious. I am just ordinary. I am insecure. I am trying-hard. I am not neat. I am not that smart either. I am a burden. I am desperate. I am shy. I am afraid. I'm the ugliest when I'm laughing. No one would look at me as if I'm somebody special. No one would like me.
No one would love me.
Time to Believe Him who says I'm beautiful and precious.
With this new me, I just know that I can be secured. I don't need to be deperate, I don't need to dread in waiting for my MOG.
I just know that he will pursue me no matter what because he will see me in His eyes. :)
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails...
But I want to know
Did I really fall in love?
I wonder.
I mean "love" here for the "romantic" side of me. hehehe.
You know, I had tons of crushes before. An even now, being a girl, sometimes I just got really attracted.
I had a 5 year crush on someone.
I also admired one of my Senior in High School.
or even a friend who's really into music.
I profess someone as my future husband when I was in grade school.
I even followed someone anywhere and chose the course in college because I think that's the nearest to his.
Though they are pretty much special, I don't think I loved them. Sobrang reserved talaga ako for my Man of God (MOG) hahahaha.
