I'm 25 and never had a boyfriend. Why?
The old me: "I'm not pretty enough".
If I were the old me, I would repeatedly tell myself "It's because you're not pretty enough, not good enough. There's something really wrong with you!"
It was so dreadful. It wasn't really easy for the younger me because I believed back then that life is all about education and a boyfriend (really). I remember being so desperate. Those who knew me then would agree with this. I remember asking my PolGov professor one day with this question (out of nowhere),
"Sir....magkaka boyfriend po ba ko sir?"
and his response was out of this world (mind you haha),
"Oo naman, mas maganda ka pa sa kalabasa"!
What does he mean? At least for me, it means, I'm not as pretty as the other girls. I continued thinking "No one will love me. I must not have any standards na. Basta lalaki okay na!"
In between: "I have to meet Love Himself first "
When I was 18 though and in the midst of all these insecurities, I met Someone. Someone that made me realize that there's really something wrong with me (sin) , but He took care of it already. Someone who told me that I'm beautiful twice over (because He created me and saved me). Someone who said with His life and blood that I'm precious and worth dying for. (I'm honestly so kilig writing this! HAHA!) I met the BEST MAN ever. My THE ONE - JESUS CHRIST.
I'm THAT BEAUTIFUL to HIM? I'm THAT PRECIOUS to HIM? SOMEONE LOVES ME? WOW.
I slowly shrugged the thought that I'm not pretty or good enough. (slowly, yes, it took years and years for me to fully embrace who He says I am because there are times that insecurity creeps in. I'm grateful that He keeps on reminding me of His love and my identity in Him.) I learned the process of taking my eyes off myself and what's beautiful for the world and look to Him.
"This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!" 2 Corinthians 5:17
The new me.
It's surprising that nowadays people were surprised whenever they would discover that I never had a boyfriend nor a suitor (YES!) I hear them say , "Weh? di nga? baka hindi mo na agad pinapansin", " Irereto kita sa pinsan ko teacher!" or "siguro ang taas taas ng standards mo."
STANDARDS. The old me didn't have this but now, Yes, I do have. I do have high standards - God's standards: Someone who also met Love Himself in between and loves Him more than he could ever love anyone (even me).
I'm 25 and never had a boyfriend. Why?
1. God is molding me. He's really doing a big work in my heart. I have to be molded to the woman God wants me to be. A woman who's so whole and complete in Him. A woman whose pursuit is His purposes.
"... people used to tell me the best way to prepare for marriage was to date around and to get into all of these short-term flings. I learned the hard way that that wasn’t true, but what I did realize in that season of my life was that the best way that I could prepare for marriage truly was to learn how to find my fulfillment in Christ, how to make Him my First Love, how to cultivate that spiritual purity in my life where He was my All in all." - Leslie Ludy
2. He's prepared a man for me. My MOG. Not an other half but an equal match. He is also whole and complete in Him. No need to settle for anything less than what He wants for me - His best. I'm sure He is still doing a big work in his heart too (hehe).
3. It's not yet His time. I know He knows when it is the sweetest. Just like what is written in the book of Ecclesiastes, "He has made everything beautiful in its time". 3:11a
If it's His will, walang makakapigil.
If not, we surrender to His good, pleasing and perfect will. :")
I really dread letting others know that I have NBSB but now, I'm surprisingly joyful. I think I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm amazed. As I look back, it was like my THE ONE protected me all along and ensured na Sya ang magiging FIRST SUITOR, LOVE at YES ko.
I'm glad that He is.
And for you, princess, whatever status you're in, whatever the condition of your heart right now -hopeless or hopeful, shattering or healing.... it's not too late. One day, you will also meet THE ONE in between. The One who loved you first. He loved you first. He's fighting for that moment.
Let Him love your first.
"Let Him love you first.
Before you allow the right guy to pursue you, give your yes to the Lord first.
Because God wants to show you how you should be loved.
He wants to give you heaven and earth before anyone can promise you the sun and the moon.
He wants you to experience his genuine intention to serenade you with His goodness and mercy.
He wants to rejoice with you and quiet you with His love.
He longs to have a lot of your “firsts.” - Joena San Diego
It's surprising that nowadays people were surprised whenever they would discover that I never had a boyfriend nor a suitor (YES!) I hear them say , "Weh? di nga? baka hindi mo na agad pinapansin", " Irereto kita sa pinsan ko teacher!" or "siguro ang taas taas ng standards mo."
STANDARDS. The old me didn't have this but now, Yes, I do have. I do have high standards - God's standards: Someone who also met Love Himself in between and loves Him more than he could ever love anyone (even me).
I'm 25 and never had a boyfriend. Why?
1. God is molding me. He's really doing a big work in my heart. I have to be molded to the woman God wants me to be. A woman who's so whole and complete in Him. A woman whose pursuit is His purposes.
"... people used to tell me the best way to prepare for marriage was to date around and to get into all of these short-term flings. I learned the hard way that that wasn’t true, but what I did realize in that season of my life was that the best way that I could prepare for marriage truly was to learn how to find my fulfillment in Christ, how to make Him my First Love, how to cultivate that spiritual purity in my life where He was my All in all." - Leslie Ludy
2. He's prepared a man for me. My MOG. Not an other half but an equal match. He is also whole and complete in Him. No need to settle for anything less than what He wants for me - His best. I'm sure He is still doing a big work in his heart too (hehe).
3. It's not yet His time. I know He knows when it is the sweetest. Just like what is written in the book of Ecclesiastes, "He has made everything beautiful in its time". 3:11a
If it's His will, walang makakapigil.
If not, we surrender to His good, pleasing and perfect will. :")
I really dread letting others know that I have NBSB but now, I'm surprisingly joyful. I think I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm amazed. As I look back, it was like my THE ONE protected me all along and ensured na Sya ang magiging FIRST SUITOR, LOVE at YES ko.
I'm glad that He is.
And for you, princess, whatever status you're in, whatever the condition of your heart right now -hopeless or hopeful, shattering or healing.... it's not too late. One day, you will also meet THE ONE in between. The One who loved you first. He loved you first. He's fighting for that moment.
Let Him love your first.
"Let Him love you first.
Before you allow the right guy to pursue you, give your yes to the Lord first.
Because God wants to show you how you should be loved.
He wants to give you heaven and earth before anyone can promise you the sun and the moon.
He wants you to experience his genuine intention to serenade you with His goodness and mercy.
He wants to rejoice with you and quiet you with His love.
He longs to have a lot of your “firsts.” - Joena San Diego
