When it's hard to breathe

            I don't know if I could blame the allergy or what... but last month ,  there are times that  I just found it hard to breathe. I felt  a little pain on my chest and on my back too. I felt it once while I'm teaching and the other one before going to bed.

            I remember telling my student, "Is it (inhale ) okay (inhale) if I will (inhale) take (inhale) a deep breath (inhale) like this (inhale) in our class?"

            It was just so hard, I don't even know why I suddenly felt that way.

            All I could do is be reminded of the bleeding woman in  Luke, imitate her by touching Jesus with my faith. I cried out to Him and believe for healing.

           After some minutes though, I felt better and I could even eat lunch with my co-teachers. Thank God for the relief!


             But then after some days, while I was in my home in Bulacan, it happened again. I was about to go to sleep and it's .. it's hard to breathe again.

              My natural tendency was really not to bother others when I'm hurting. As much as possible, I'll try to endure on my own. My family were sleeping and I don't want to disturb them or to add to my Mom's worries. Thus, I just prayed (are you surprised? haha). I prayed for healing and I surrendered as well. If ever it's my last night here on earth, I offered my soul to Him  and I also wrote my goodbye letter in my Bible (in case it's time for me to go to my real home - heaven, para ready! ).

             My "goodbye letter" it simply consists of me trying hard to share the Gospel hehe....

             I wrote:

"If ever I'm gone and already gone to heaven, don't be sad because I am with my beloved Jesus. 

My Lord and my savior. My all-in-all.

Please don't forget that Jesus is the only way to heaven! Please stop trusting in yourself! Start trusting in Jesus alone!

Romans 6:23!

John 3:16!

Ephesians 2:8-9!!!!

I love you, but Jesus loves you more than most!

This is a great life only because of Him!

Love,

Ycs. "

Ang OA noh? But really!
It's  my hope that even my death could still be used for the Gospel to be heard, known and believed.

I closed my eyes. Not knowing if I could still wake up.

But hey! I'm writing today so that means.. I woke up!!! (Are you surprised?HAHA)

Found  myself crying....

I woke up... I. woke. up! 

Maybe I could still offer something in this world.

When it's hard to breathe, I learned about numbering my days.

I suddenly had that greater desire to do something that could really impact people's lives. I hope that I'll just be able to do my best, give my best and love at my best.

I learned more about appreciating every moment, every season ,every friendship, every events,every struggles, every food (haha)...

I'm grateful that I could still finish my second sem in UP or that I was able to share my faith to a classmate, that I was able to be Fuu of Magic Knight Rayearth for a day or just pray one more prayer  for the nation of Nepal, Jordan or Bhutan.  I get to  hug my Mom tighter, to laugh with my brother, to make Stephen smile and simply read the Bible to my Lola or just ask her again "Maganda ba ko?" hahaha!

When it's hard to breathe,  I remember still thinking about my future husband. Hehe.

"Daddy, if it's my last night, paano na si MOG?"

And then I realized that his is a great life only because of Him!

I'm  continuously learning  that life, that this life,  is simply all about Him. Dancing with Him, looking at Him.. enjoying Him. It's still a life worth living. It's a beautiful life.  :")

I'm still not that completely healthy physically these days... I still have my allergies at night, slight fever, colds, cough, headache, sore throat whatever

but hey..

He is still God and  I'm  still breathing.

"Joy unspeakable, faith unsinkable,

Love unstoppable, anything is possible

Just to know You and to make You known

We lift Your name on High

Shine like the sun made darkness run and hide

We know we were made for so much more

Than ordinary lives

It's time for us to more than just survive

We were made to thrive" - Thrive, Casting Crowns 

Declaring for healing to come and that for me to be a better steward of this body and of every breath!  In Jesus Name. Amen!




                                                                                                      Photo by Nine Köpfer on Unsplash

On Missions and Submission

I always love the weekends. Especially the productive ones. I always thought that weekends are really meant to be documented. Yester
day was such a productive, meaningful and fun-filled one so I decided to write about it. Here's why:

9 AM. I attended the Worship Service with my Mom again  in Victory Ubelt after so many months! Lovely!


9AM. It's the world missions series again. This year, it's called "Uncharted". It's about reaching the cities of the world for Jesus. :)  The world missions series is so meaningful to me. I think it's always like that when there's a special date for me, laging natatapat na World Missions ang topic. Like during my anniversary of attending Victory and also during my September 2012 Victory Weekend.  My heart is beating for it now.


To the far ends of earth we go..Your love story must be told...

10:30 - 12:NN I ate lunch with my Mom. She told me that two of her workmates want to come with her in Manila (there's a possiblity that we could invite them to join us in a Worship service as well). and also, my Mom told me that  she's attending a Bible study every Wednesday now! WHOA!

12NN - 12:45PM I talked with ate Emme about some girly stuff that I have in mind. Like "Okay lang ba magpaganda? and "Paano mambasted?"

She told me that, it's okay to be beautiful as long as the motivation is right. It's like letting people see that the King of kings and the Lord of lords is taking care of me. "Si Lord ang nag aalaga  kaya blooming" (that's  what we are praying for na maging impact). And also, she asked if I'll look "manang" do I think other people would be attracted to Christianity/ in following Christ? No because they'll think it's 'baduy" or boring.  Be elegant not daring she added. Because we need to protect men's eyes from sinning. Be modest. :)

And when it comes to pambabasted, hmm bakit ko nga ba ito naitanong? haha. We'll naiisip ko talaga na I don't want to be rude when I don't like someone pero I know that I have the tendency to do something not nice. I think iiwasan ko na agad agad at never na ako makikipagusap ulit. Not even glance again once na nagtapat ang taong ayaw ko. haha. Ang samang thought no? on the other side, I also have the tendency to settle for less because I'm afraid to hurt other's  feeling. Lalong mas malupit noh? Hindi ko na napaglaban si Man of God ko!!!

That's why I need wisdom.

Based on experience, she said that she really talk to the guy and tell him na friend lang talaga ang  turing nya sa kanya. She also said na pinapagalitan nya din minsan. Saying... "You know maybe you're giving me something that belongs to someone else..maybe I'm not the girl for you "

She then told me about her MOG. She wants a prayer warrior! (gusto ko din to, hahaha) Anywa, our conversation ended. :)


1PM I served God through the ushering ministry. :) Kuya Jeric called me 'Yael" (hahaha, maybe because he read my testimony) and also he gave us "Fresh Berry" a snack from Korea. It's so delicious!!! I want more. I'll definitely buy a box when I go to Korea. In Jesus' name. Amen. :)

3PM I waited and reserved a seat for Angelo (my High school friend)  but he's so late. I end up giving the seat to Gabby and Myra. :)

5PM As team Admins in the up coming Lifebox PUP team building, Myra and I went to Calda Pizza for a meeting. That was really fun.Kasama namin ang mga Team leaders and the organizers.  Ngayon pa lang mainit na ang labanan! HAHAHA! I declare VIOLET team will win! Above all, I pray that we'll all have fun and enjoy. :) During the break out session (meaning , all girl/ admin meeting) I learned that being an Admin is a practice of submission. "Let them lead". "Let them lead".


7PM Lastly, Myra and I went back to the center to find Ate Yoko. She will also apply for Missions next year! And she shose Krygyzstan as well. If the Lord permits, we'll go together. It also came to me that perhaps we'll be needing 100 Thousand for that. Whoa. Si Lord na talaga ito. Nanliit ako bigla but then yeah,NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE RIGHT? IF IT"S HIS WILL, IT"S HIS BILL!!

Daddy, 100,000 please? Thank you! :)

World Missions Podcasts

I listened to three wonderful messages about reaching out the other nations over here:                   http://www.everynation.org.ph/media/  .  Here are my notes: Haha!  :)



Every Nation by Michael Paderes
Changed life is permanent. The Grace of God is permanent. Jesus Christ is permanent.

Romans 15:17-21

World Missions

so that the name of Jesus would be honored in every nation of the world!

You don't join Christianity, you catch it. You encounter Jesus Christ. - Michael Paredes

They have destiny and purpose in Christ.

by the power of the Spirit

How can you explain a changed life?

The Gospel is unstoppable.

bravely proclaim the Gospel!

Our passion should be world missions.

to somehow touch the nation

Because of the honor of the Name of Jesus


Trip Essentials Ptr. Jun Escosar

Revelation 5:9

People belong to Jesus (not to the government or whoever)

Every human being deserves to hear the Gospel.

Acts 1:8

Acts 8:1

Mark 11

His church must be a House prayer for all nations.

It's not about  the money that you have or who you now..

Mahal na mahal ng Panginoon ang mga Muslim

The only way to break poverty is Giving.

What to pray for: 

Protection

Open Doors

Long Term Visas

If you believe and do not doubt you receive whatever you ask for in prayer.

James 5:16

Do we have faith to believe?

Will ba ni Lord ma reach ang nation? YES! Then  HE will hear us.

When we pray we get what God can do.



Every Nation by Jonas Bernales (I want to meet him!)

pa unggoy unggoy (I should write this joke, so that I could remember to tell my friends or you guys one day)

living for God vs living His life through you

It's about the Holy Spirit.

Every nation is welcome now  in God's presence because the curtain in now tron apart.

Kitty (man,  first fruit in Thailand)  Ptr. Ferdie gave him other name : Tiger (Tigel)

Ptr. Jonas: God will reach out this university
Kitty: Ho ly ly?

Prayer:

You're plan for me is beyond me.



We can actively partake in the advancing of your kingdom.

Everybody, every people, every Nation with our Savior! :)

Coming soon: 

Kyrgyzstan...December 2015..winter...muslim nation..

Jesus, I'll go...by the power of Your Spirit I will go...