Updates+ YouTube + UP +Discipleship+Summer

Yay! Yay! Yay!
 Ycah here (of course)!

After watching tons (?) of  videos of Janina Vela and Nate Punzalan (yes, I'm a self-confessed part of #Velafam and #punmily) on Youtube (check 'em out!), I just feel like blogging again (since I can't Vlog. But I really want to! Wala eh, no editing skills nor better camera yet. Yes, yet? hoho. So dito muna tayo).

What?Ang SABOG din eh noh?

I was just inspired by these siblings to just express myself kahit na sabog pa in my sight. Nate said, just release it and you''ll just get better at it. It uplifted me not just in writing blog posts  but also in writing my... wait.. what?

Case study? School observation report? Educ Journal Report? Critic paper? Reports? huhuhuhu! #studentfeels

Yes, this is my UP update. Can I just be honest?  I'm overthinking about  these things  and ending up being unproductive. They are always in my thoughts.. being  unfinished or not yet started simply because of having no idea how to begin. I'm having this struggle of "staring at the blank paper" kinda thing. Or honestly,  procrastination kind of thing? which is really really scary. It prolongs the agony!!! Please rid me of myself. *inhale *exhale #saveme

Been loving school life though.

 The campaign period started and it's nice listening to young people's advocacies. How brave! Ended up praying for them while listening..oh young people. Soon, you guys will also fight for the Greatest human right (wait what is it? Basically, people hearing the Gospel). I declare.

I enjoy learning Child Development! Yas.  Soon matatandaan ko din ang mga theory na yan. Huhuhu. Nice 'cause I have 5 year-old and one-year old cousins plus I teach kids once a month in church. What I'm learning  is really  helpful. How? Well, I love children better!! I don't know, but  ever since I took this subject my heart just beats and beats and beats for children  and their great future. And  it's nice to understand them and their development better. Oh, #nextgeneration

Minor kilig involves seeing Zorro ( he talked to me and pat my back!No, not that I have a crush on him though), walking from EDUK to OUR (pwede naman pala), makisabay sa car ng classmate going to Katipunan, madaan ang AS (Palma Hall) everytime pupunta sa school and my consent letter where I can read "Jessica May Padayao, a student of UP College of Education". #teehee #nuks

Next is discipleship updates! Just went to the "ENGAGE" conference last March 24 over at MOA  Arena. I was with Ate Cams Duhino (yes! Ate Japanese food (sukiyaki) with her. She's so generous..and I'm... I'm  so shy!!!)  and then we also met Kevin (such a blessing! He bought our merchandise!!Yas! New shirt!) Yay! We made it! We finished all the activities before the start of the conference!!

As always, I'm in awe. 12,000 Victory group leaders and interns in Metro Manila worshiping and having fun together??! WHUT?!!! Personally, I met and prayed for an intern from Victory Pioneer!

And .. shhh.. I got kilig too!

1. The thought of.. "Is my MOG here?" (Wow, if yes, we're in the same plaaacee?!!! And that's kilig right? MOG stands for Man of God btw)

2. I saw a guy! He's so familiar!!  Why? He was one of the Candy Cuties in Candy Mag in my time. Now you can see him in a Metrobank commercial  I think. Wow. Don't know his name though  #starstruck lang hehe.

My take home:

-Don't live a life of "do what I say but don't do what I do". (Practice what you preach, Ycs!)

-Do not lose your "SALTiness"!!

-Pastor Steve's new book - The Multiplication Challenge! (That's not a Math book, hehe)

Anyway, speaking of discipleship, I was over the moon when I started doing One 2 One with Wilma (my co-teacher). But then, we didn't finish yet 'cause she's leaving for Thailand soon and I'm .. I'm...:"( .
Still believing that God will grow the seeds in her good heart. :)

Alright, done with the UP and discipleship updates now let's have... SUMMER UPDATE!!!!

I'm thrilled and overwhelmed.  We'll have Junior Kids Bonding in a resort soon and also...

Beach. White Sand. Snorkeling. Star Gazing. Rock formations. Corals. Moana captions for my photos. Boat riding and above all, praying and hearing a Word together. That'll be next month for me. My heart is beating wonderfully against my rib cage you guys.

I still don't know if I'm going to register to PUP Alumni Summer Bonding and Singles' Camp 2017. I would definitely love too! As in!!! But the thought of spending my savings brings tears. Is it wise? What's the fine line between.. shortage mentality and "you cannot spend what you do not have|?" (ANO DAW)  Still learning.. learning.. learning...

That's it! Thanks for reading! For your next adventure, May you enjoy the Creator more than the creation my dear friend!

 Bye!

PS. I finished this post. Matatapos ko din ang papers for acads right? *puppy eyes

Oh me of little faith

My eyes still hurt. I cried hard at Mcdo yesterday. It was kinda embarrassing. Never thought I'll be that emotional. The super-excited me for my friend/ spiritual daughter's victory weekend suddenly hit a rock bottom. She'll not do it she said.

For now.

I was surprised and the tears just fell. It actually  communicate what's  obvious.

I'm scared.  Scared that the enemy is triumphing over stealing the Words  and faith that were planted  in her  heart.
I'm worried. Worried that because she feels okay na with her life again,  and therefore stop the fire for Him.
Worried that she might be one of the girls that I fail to establish in the faith thus missed out a lot.
I'm insecure. I felt that I'm not good enough or that I just really can't be her leader. I can't lead well. Oh no, what did I do wrong?
I'm disappointed. It's like a wedding was just postponed when everything's almost ready. But not the bride.

Now that I'm writing it, the more I realized... Oh me of little faith!

There's no fear in love right?
Do not worry, instead pray for everything right?
You can only lead by His grace right?
It's only by the power of the Holy Spirit uy!
Everything will be beautiful in His time. He's in control! Oh me of little faith!

I surrendered and I still lead the VG last night with bawled eyes  and red face.

Like always, I wanted to ask, "Dad, what am I gonna do?"

and I know He'll answer, "Trust Me."

Ngiting "Lord I trust You with her life" 

falling in love loving women falling in love with Him

She's so simple, so pretty. 

She smiles but it's empty. 

She needs a hug, a company. 

She needs strength, love, security, joy,  identity. 

She needs Jesus really. 

I've been longing to share Him to her. 

What-a-life it would be for her.

 I know He's the only solution

          to all her pain and  confusion. 

I'm excited for what she'll become!

Yes, a  woman after God's heart will come. 

She's broken and breaking within 

Got to be with her again and listen 

Come on Holy Spirit! 

Let's encourage her and pray! 

Just when I thought it's all over,

She read out a reviewer 

A  door was suddenly opened

I just find myself sharing the Gospel!

Heaven rejoices as she accepted

Our Lord Jesus Christ and His blood shed

I declare peace and wholeness for her heart 

I'm sure though that His love will never part

She' s so simple, so pretty

She smiles and  it's not empty 

She got a hug, a company

She found strength, love, security, joy, identity 

Jesus' all she needs really

What-a-privilege, what-a-joy to be used by Him 

 I'm falling in love loving women and may they all fall in love with Him.

- ycah padayao (September 23, 2016) 

Every Company (VG in the workplace)

When I first came to you, dear brothers and sisters, I didn’t use lofty words and impressive wisdom to tell you God’s secret plan.

For I decided that while I was with you I would forget everything except Jesus Christ, the one who was crucified. 

 I came to you in weakness—timid and trembling.  

And my message and my preaching were very plain. 

Rather than using clever and persuasive speeches, I relied only on the power of the Holy Spirit. 
                                                                                                         (1 Corinthians 2:1-4 NLT) 



Take a look at my last post. You'll notice that  I was over the moon back then when I had  a glimpse of having  group in the workplace , when I saw an open door, when I saw how God amazingly do it.

Before, I was just designing my "invitation card" like this:

And Ta- daaaa! It's really happening now!

                   After hearing the Good News!

I was praying and asking Daddy (God) last week  what I should share to our group in the workplace. And I am reminded of the most important message of all - The Gospel. I believe that it's the beginning and the foundation of this journey called Christianity.

I could just really feel the Holy Spirit moving through me and speaking through me at that time. It was such a powerful and amazing moment. It's so nakakakilig that I even bursted out in Facebook, "Yung season na mas nakakakilig na yung purpose and calling mo kaysa sa crush mo".

We started at the first Wednesday of May and it continued.
We met at Mcdonalds then in a food gallery. That's where I had a privilege to share the Gospel to the girls.Really praying  and now, I'm declaring that this wonderful seed in their heart will continue to grow.

Indeed, the joy of discipleship is one of my favorite feelings and moments. I think I'll do this for a lifetime!

Korean Ice cream after shift. Aww I miss Minerva/ Jhie!

Having a Victory Group in the workplace is a dream come true  for me and an obeyed command from Daddy God (He asked me to for more clearly last August 2015 and it's what, May 2016?). As His witness we just can't help but share what we saw and experienced. It's not easy but  it's worth it.

Here are some advice for those who have a heart to reach our their offices too  :

♥  Pray and Fast. Hear from God. Really seek His will for you, for them and for the group.
Really cry out to Daddy. More than you, He's the one who  really wants to reach out your officemates and friends!

♥  Try to have a spiritual sister or brother to co-lead the group with you, pray with you etc. It's really amazing how God let me know Heidi. She is my co-teacher who  also have the heart to reach out to our co-teachers! Prior meeting Heidi, Daddy  also let me know Ate Angelica. She really encouraged me to have a group in the workplace!

♥   Be ready. Set the time, place and duration. An opportunity to invite will come and you'll just know it's God who moved! Suddenly, you'll just be surprised that  your influence increased and people will just come and talk to you. But then, have faith with  action. Be engaging, be the one to talk to them too. Initiate. Be intentional. And don't forget! Discipleship is  a relationship.

♥   Believe in this. One of the primary way to make disciples is really a small group because here we don't feel alone with our faith. We can share our lives to others. We don't have to fight alone. We are encouraged also with the prayers, faith and praise reports of others. Believe that it can be used by God to share the most imporatant message of all --- that is the Gospel  and grow a disciple!


Actually, I'm also noting this to myself! I'm not an expert in this  and I know only  God made and can make things happen!

I declare that our VGs will help of officemates  to have spiritual growth and  a  deeper relationship with Christ!

Every company. Every Offices for Jesus! :)

Early days of Being 23

I was reading Ms. Patty's blog earlier and I'm just so inspired to write again about what's happening these days.. these early days of being 23.

Some of the highlights were my tummy's breakthroughs. Haha. I ate T-bone Steak and Lamb for the first time! I ate the steak during my birthday celebration with VF's over at Artsy Cafe. I loved it when I said "well-done" to the waiter when he asked me how I like my steak to be done. It was really delicious and it's fun to eat since I need to use a knife. HAHAHA. Ang babaw ko talaga noh?

Anyway,  then I ate  the Lamb kabab last  night in Mister Kabab  with Marian. We did our One 2 One there. It's a little salty for me and I just shrugged the middle eastern flavor (I'm not really a fan of that). Because it's a Lamb, I feel like maybe I could see one in person one day. (yes, I really would love to see one!) That made me happy and excited. So it's a fun experience too!


Next is, I'm loving Kids ministry these days. We just had our General Assembly last Saturday and it was really awesome. Great bonding time with them! Ah, too bad that I'm gonna miss the Christmas party this coming Saturday! (You'll know why soon.;))

Last Sunday, I attended my coaching group and my leader taught us about being a shepherd to our spiritual daughters. I realize and I know now that it's not really easy taking care of the sheeps. You really got to be careful. So careful. It made me more amazed with my own Shepherd that Jesus who laid down His life for the "maarte" "messy" and "dumb" sheep like me.  Oh Daddy, help me to become the shepherd that you want me to be for the girls.

One of my girls is having a hard time right now and I feel like I can't even help her. I feel at times like I'm not really being a good and wise leader. Huhuhuhu. But I can pray and remind her of God's truth and promises right? We'll keep on fighting.


Another thing that happened was during the Intercessors' meeting in PUP, I shared a Word to them for the first time! Grabe si Holy Spirit nun! Iba. Bongga. Ang galing! I shared the verse Luke 16:10 and Kuya Tim even thanked me for the Word!

I just really want to document these moments, these early days of this amazing year of my life. I decalre promotion in every way, to overcome struggles, spiritual growth, adventures and to bless more people. Happy Thursday!


P.S.


Feeling ko may dalawa akong crush these days. Hinahangaan.. ganyan. Pero kino conquer ko. Guarding my heart. Kung iisipin kasi .. having a crush or crushes is having unnecessary kilig, unnecessary pain, thoughts, hopes etc. Brothers mo sila. Friends. Let it go. Merong Tamang Panahon. Emotional purity, emotional purity!!!

Whew,  I'll just really be myself, enjoy Jesus, know and  do His purposes for me and bloom in my relationship with Him (that's the most important).  I'll just wait for MOG to have the courage to tell me what he prayed for and his intentions. Aja!

New things Sprung up

New Thing 1: Gabby in VSJDM

Gabby (my sister in Christ since college) announced that  this year is her last year in Ubelt (because we think that God is calling her in Victory San Jose Del Monte). And that is the start that things are actually changing around me now. It's honestly hard for me. Well, not really hard but a little painful.

 I could still vividly remember  our early journey in the faith. We served in the same ministry together (Ushering) and as we serve, we experienced being in Ubelt for the 3PM, 5PM and 7 PM services on a Friday. I miss being with her at the back waiting for our time to walk and collect the tithes. Our little kwentuhan here and there while waiting. Attending services together, reserving seats for each other, attending Leaders' Convergence or Discipleship events, praying together in PUP etc. Though I know she will always be there. May mababago pa din at may nagbabago na.

Nonetheless, I'm so so happy and so so proud of her. It's amazing to witness a portion of how God is molding her. Her heart for the youth, her heart of praying for other people, her heart to just really Honor God and make disciples. Grabe. I just believe that her heart and faith will bring a great impact  in VSJDM.

I'll just really miss her but I know she's just a text  or fb messenger away.



New Thing 2: Doing One to One again

I can't remember the last time maybe it's been a year and a half that I'm not doing it. Finally, this faith goal has been answered! And this time, it's unlike the ones that I did before. She's older than me, she's not from PUP, she's not a student ...etc. I can really feel and see the new season in the area of discipleship and I declare more. More. Not just more women to lead but more of molding in my part since whoa. Hindi biro ang bawat soul, bawat prinsesa na ibibigay at binibigay ng Panginoon. We can't  take this lightly. Grace is gonna pour out. His Holy Spirit will just really use me to minister.



New Thing 3: Victory Group for VG Leaders (part-time Coach? haha)

Really scarry. But I'll say it again, "Hindi biro ang bawat soul, bawat prinsesa na ibibigay at binibigay ng Panginoon. We can't  take this lightly. Grace is gonna pour out. His Holy Spirit will just really use me to minister. " New Spiritual daughters, new struggles, new encouragements, new love that I'm gonna give away. I was really nervous but God just encouraged me through the life of Gideon that He will defeat our Midianites too! Amen! I'm lovin' preparing now now for our VG. I think I'll really grow as I minister. Help Daddy!!!!


New Thing 3: Daughter's Fruitfulness


It's my dream to become a Mom and also to become a Grand-mom. It's lovely though that it's somehow happening now. Every time na may ipapakilala ang mga Daughters ko na mga ni ri-reach out nila or wina wan two wan. I really feel kilig. What-a-privilege indeed and I'm the happiest when my Daughters get to fulfill what God wants thejm to do. It's not out of obligation but out of overflowing love for the lost. Ito siguro and favorite new thing ko.


New Thing 4:  High School Friends in Victory

Emat, R-jay, Jenny, Rosette and Me. Who would've that we'll be in one church now and that we'll be prayer partners? Amazing God of Wonders (#princessinawe) I declare na hindi lang kaming lima ang ma eencounter ni God sa section namin nung High School but EVERYONE. Oh may He use us mightily.



New Thing 5: Singles Camp

Hehehehehehe. No Comment (na mahaba)  muna. Sa August pa ito but this is really something NEW to me. First Time it is. Feeling nasa Singles Ministry na talaga ako. I'm standing firm in His promise that I will be able for camp safely and there will be showers of blessings. :)


That's it folks. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes being in the midst of the changes and new challenges but I know He's holding me and He's the anchor for my Soul. Every time I would think of His Name, feeling ko kakayanin ko talaga. In Jesus' Name. Amen.


'til next season! 

FRUITFULNESS

I need to write this.

These days, God's impressing to me about the coming of a new season so I think I'm in  a brink of transition. New season I guess is specifically in my ministry of discipleship.

I received a message last night about a girl who wants to join my Victory group. This girl is already established so I'm feelin' kinda pressured.  Like what if I can't equip her enough? What if she'll not enjoy in our VG since we're few in numbers now? What if it'll just be the last time (wherein things didn't work out)?

Worries yeah. But today, God just commanded me to be strong and very courageous. Been encountering what He said to Joshua

(Joshua 1:6-9 New International Version (NIV)

6 Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their ancestors to give them.

7 “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips;meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 

9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”). 
Also, I'm being reminded also to forget the former things of the past because He's doing a new thing and it springs up!



Isaiah 43:18-20 New International Version (NIV)


18 “Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.

I declare that a season or fruitfulness and preaching His Word is coming. I declare wisdom, excellence and heart in engaging, establishing, equipping and empowering the women that God will entrust to me. I will be the Victory Group Leader that He wants me to be.After all, I'm unstoPUPble right? I will live out my purpose which is to Honor Him and Make Disciples. I know  I can only do this by His GRACE ALONE.  In Jesus' name. Amen! 

Now, I 'm really lifting up  and crying out a Victory group growth in the Campus and to start one in the singles ministry. 

1st Fasting Preparation :)

Last Sunday (January 04, 2015), we had our very first Fasting Preparation gathering. It's open for everyone under the  coaching group of Ate Jovie.  I'm so blessed to have these girls in my life! :)

Ate Jovie, Gabby and her handle 

The beautiful girls! (Edz, Ana, Ate Jovie and Arl) 

HAHAHAHA! YES! FAITH GOALS yan ni GABBY!!! :) 

Buddy Arl and my dear Mela, reading the Top 3 Faith Goals 

Jenny got my top 3! ! :) 

got Ate Jovie's

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Love Team COC

I LOVE THURSDAY! Aside from hearing and seeing  Pastor Paul Herrera (Youth Pastor of Victory Caloocan) for the first time,  I really enjoyed last night because of  these people from my College - COC (College of Communication) ! Here we are conquering  the burger, sundae and fries! My co-leaders met second year and 1st year students!

I even met someone to One 2 One and someone who will join my VG! WAAAH! Yeah! COC for Jesus!