I am nothing.
I am unworthy.
I am meant for something less.
I am not important.
I am not significant.
I would always be out-of-place.
I would always be less.
I can never be enough.
I am not beautiful.
I am not good at heart either.
I'm not precious.
I am just ordinary.
I am insecure.
I am trying-hard.
I am not neat.
I am not that smart either.
I am a burden.
I am desperate.
I am shy.
I am afraid.
I'm the ugliest when I'm laughing.
No one would look at me as if I'm somebody special.
No one would like me.
No one would love me.
Because of these thoughts, I just know that the enemy is stealing my hope in me. There are times, that I would have doubts whether it's really possible to be free from that identity of mine when I was still lost. They would creep in and eventually leave a scar in my heart. How did I have those thoughts anyway? Maybe because of how I was treated or maybe because of how I treated myself.
But because of how Jesus treated me, I have my hope again. Everything just turn around. Despite of all my limitations, I know He's able. He's teaching me to become like Him day-by-day. One of the "Him" that He wants me to be is.. the revelation that "He loves me. No matter what." Thus, I must love myself too.
I read a quote on tumblr before which goes like this (I'm not that sure), "Love yourself so that we can have something in common."
I am unworthy.
I am meant for something less.
I am not important.
I am not significant.
I would always be out-of-place.
I would always be less.
I can never be enough.
I am not beautiful.
I am not good at heart either.
I'm not precious.
I am just ordinary.
I am insecure.
I am trying-hard.
I am not neat.
I am not that smart either.
I am a burden.
I am desperate.
I am shy.
I am afraid.
I'm the ugliest when I'm laughing.
No one would look at me as if I'm somebody special.
No one would like me.
No one would love me.
Time to Believe Him who says I'm beautiful and precious.
With this new me, I just know that I can be secured. I don't need to be deperate, I don't need to dread in waiting for my MOG.
I just know that he will pursue me no matter what because he will see me in His eyes. :)
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