I choose to Love

You're my beloved..you're my bride..

Listening to Kari Jobe's My Beloved while sitting here after another day at the field.

The song is somehow is my comfort song, not the song itself, but the knowledge of Who is singing this to me. :)

Disclaimer. I'm not gonna write about the song or something...

 but about the "another day at the field" part.

Got it? Okay. Breathe. :)

Imagine my joy when once again I got the chance of witnessing and learning media stuffs outside the station itself. And yes, indeed, I didn't fail to witness and learn.

We interviewed an owner of a coffee shop this morning and their black forest was pretty much amazing and  I learned about silence. 

Prayed.

Ate PANCIT! PUTO! BBQ! LUMPIANG SHANGHAI! (they have to be capitalized since it's like a Fiesta).

We then move on to a freelancer and my heart is just beating for event organizing. OR Maybe for my "forever at 21" Birthday Celebration :)

Answered prayer. We got a lessor at the House of Representatives! and It just marked my first time at the congress 9 I learned to be a model in front of Batasan, bet yah! A professional cameraman holds the cam yow. So blessed!)  I learned about mission within the Philippines. Since I'm just accustomed with a mission within campus and other nation, not really.... at mountains of the Phil.

Going back at the station after a long day of work and food, I thought that would be all. I thought..something's already different, I thought something's just so right.

Friendships. Meaningful Relationships. Acceptance.

As I viewed images, memories and feelings...What's within surprisingly came out. 

They also thought of the things others are thinking about. 

I thought again, I will not be affected, I will not be affected...I will not be affected...

But here I am writing about it.

Yes I'm affected. Maybe before, I cried, got so down and all. But at this moment, when pain starts to come in...

I just  looked at the sky..."Jesus...who am I without You?  without Your security? without Your forgiveness? without Your unconditional love? I think these people won't love me anymore as You love me..." 

Then He asked me.."does it matter if they love you back? if they treat you better? what really matters to you?" 

I thought in a while what really do matters to me..."it's You!" I answered...

"yes, it's Me...and how do I love you? How do I love them?"

I whispered, "unconditionally...."

...

He chose to love even at those times that He's drowning at incomparable physical and emotional  pain.  

In the midst of rejection, He chose to give His all. 

He chose to love...He chose to love...

I'll always be His beloved and I, Ycah, just like the One who chose to love me, choose to love.

This Tuesday with Mom Lanie

..

She is used.


Used by our Heavenly Father, for Him to have an encounter with us.

And today as I listened to her, He's still using her.always and forever.


Revelations. Learnings. Better faith.



. There's a black mail

The enemy would insert "what ifs" or something that we can't just let go...it will make you afraid of losing this or experience that. Stand firm on what you believe. they will not break a wall, they will enter a gate, which is your weakness. Dun ka talaga titirahin.

. In Jesus' name, by the Blood of Christ anything is possible.


There's a power in declaration. Believe that you are victorious.He did it all! Bayad tayo ni Jesus!


.choose your battle field

There are times that we wanted to save a certain church (most especially the church that you grew up with), it's like battling inside there teritory which is very much unwise. Choose your battle field well, take a stand.

. so what if I lose my life?

Afraid of dying? afraid of something that might happen?DECIDE and STAND firmly on your FAITH. BELIEVE that no matter what, HE IS WITH YOU ALWAYS. Do not compromise. Yun yon. Let go and Let GOD.

. He knows

He knows whatever you're feeling and whatever you're going through, but without a communication, it's not healthy for your relationship with Him. He is your Father, go to Him and tell Him. Do not just shrugged of whatever you're going through. Much like on a parent-child relationship. Sometimes, your Mom just know that something's happening in your life, she is hurt because you bother to tell your friends more than her...but then....what a glorious day when you finally decide to share with her all your burdens...


We need communication for a healthy relationship. Cry out to Him.


. let her to be save first


It's regarding my friends heart for discipleship. Don't pressure myself, most especially her...it will come.. and she will understand....

.struggles turn into strengths

Hah. This insecurity issue that I went through? I believe this would be my strength and one of the great testimonies that I could have with women. Be secured in His love.

.walang Kristyanong Talunan


DECLARE. BELIEVE. We'll never ever be losers!!!!

.be constant with your walk with Him

'nuff said right. Stay on FIRE!!! HE IS ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!

. enjoy your season

It is God-given. He will prosper you there. You'll even miss that so, enjoy!

.We ask God, The Holy Spirit is the enabler and Jesus is our license


Taking off the Holy Spirit in the picture is one of the strategy so that the Trinity wouldn't be complete. :(((


.you're a threat, brace yourself


There's still more to come, but in CHRIST, we are more than conquerors.

.level up faith

in every struggle, our FAITH simply increase and increase and increase!

Are you excited?


Stay beside Him always.

Wag kang bumitaw..hindi ka Nya bibitawan..

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In the Light!!!

"We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe,
It's written in the stars that shine above...
A world where you and I belong where, faith and love will keep us strong..."


I HAVE OJT!!!!! I AM NOW AN INTERN. 
wow. what a journey to a breakthrough.

First I got the desire.
Then I asked to pray for it.
then I'm asked if " ano ba sabi ni Daddy?"
then, I was like "oo nga noh? ano bang sabi ni Daddy?"

then I read His word. John 14 it is. 

John 14

New International Version (NIV)

Jesus Comforts His Disciples

14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God^[a];believe also in me. ² My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going thereto prepare a place for you? ³ And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. ⁴ You know the way to the place where I am going.”

I'm comforted and now the promise is fulfilled!!!!!!!

Here's my status:



Beloved prayer partners, tara na't kiligin!!! MAY OJT NA PO AKO!!!!!1..2..3...WAAAHHH!!!!!! Kami po niDyna :) AT saktuhan lang sa Faith Goal namin!!!!ang galing ni Daddy mag 2-in-1 ng answered prayers!!!! It's at Light TV Channel 33 (ZOE Broadcasting), the one I've been praying for since day one, then we discover, under ZOE pala yung GNTV (which is Dyna's faith goal) :))) Start na po namin bukas...ahhhh grabe!!!! alam talaga ni Daddy kung kailan sweet!!!! John 14!!!!!! Tapos you would see the name of Jesus everywhere pa sa station, kaya nakakakilig talaga. :) Friends, hold on to your faith. ask. believe. trust!!!!! excited to hear your breakthroughs as well!!! glory! glory! glory! to Jesus!!!!:))) 

1 Thessalonians 5:24
New International Version (NIV)

24 The one who calls you is faithful, and He will do it.



Yes, He did!

Let's check the list of my faith goals over at my Fasting 2013 post. :)


How faithful He is!!!! Praying now for Him to bless every work of my hands at the station and to bring Him nothin g but glory every single moment.

In JESUS' Mighty name, AMEN!!!!!!!

Wedding Gift

 This year's first Youth Series reminded me very much of my wedding....with the Lord and Savior.

Let's flashback a few months ago...


My wedding is pretty much strange.

 It's  a two-day event.

Wait. I think twice with the word "event".

My wedding with Jesus is not just an event, it is simply ( i find it hard to think).... indescribable.

September 29 and 30

First Day...


I received a gift that I desired...I'll forever thank God for  my friend who told me  to desire it.

It is the gift of speaking another language. I always thought  it'll be so cool to know  another one, not just Filipino or English..maybe French or Italian or Greek. It's even a part of my dream right now to be a linguistic student and eventually a linguist.


Yes, God moves way way better than we thought He'll move.


The moment that I'm asking that for Him. All I could  just really do is believe. Over and over in my mind..".He is a good Father, He will not withhold any great things from His daughter, I'm asking in Jesus' name...He is the One baptizing me...He will...He is willing...."


While singing "Come like a flood and saturate me now....."

Like a fire shut up in my bones....


After that moment....The feeling is so weird (yes, define). I never felt something like that before...... EVER.


Doubts rushing in...."ako lang ba yon? Am I fooling myself?Totoo ba talaga to....Lord.....Lord....Lord...."

And I was so confused, I would think "no eh, I can't do this before...even the thought of doing something like that..I never ever ever...imagined doing..."

Until home...I'm doing that. It indeed edified me.





and the rest is  learning, studying, discovering, surrendering, listening, relying, trusting.....


Until this series...it just made me feel much closer to the Holy Spirit. That is God. That is a person ( not a force) and that is The Promise.

Marami pa kaming pag-sasamahan....and right now, I'm just very much thankful for He is  not just being with me but for being  in me :)


We reach more and more student. We reach every nation. We preach the Gospel. We speak. We love. We are fruitful. We are transformed.



He is given to me at our  wedding..He is with me now in my marriage..then to eternity.... :)


You want Him too? Ask. Believe.


In JESUS' Name. Amen!

Courageous

Courage. They said that you have that when though you have fear, you still go anyway.

This morning, I'm caught in the midst of a dilemma: To be an audience at a TV program and have that opportunity to finally have an OJT  or go to school, visit or group alone the lab high kids and the college of education friends.

Pretty tough huh? since His will is what we desire. I find it hard to discern. But He speaks in different way really...I heard the song "I Choose Jesus" thus, somehow, I thought, He wants me to choose the later options. But as time goes by...that desire is fading and doubts and fears started to say hi to me.


I really that feeling earlier. Scared of maybe letting an opportunity go..
what if..I'm wrong with my perception?

That's the time I read my Bible. I'm currently reading the book of Acts. And it was stated there about not giving up meeting together. Wow. Really, He wants me to go to my groups today. Confirmed with the Word!

But I felt sleepy, and really slept.

Before I know it, it's past 3pm. I texted the kids if they are available, sadly, there's no reply. :(
I'm also sad that my co-missionaries (naks) are not coming. I really get discouraged!!!!

I don't know..
I just move. Breathe in. I'll still go to the CoEd VG.




COURAGE.




We have a really wonderful time together. I paryed for them and it's very much rewarding. I even receive a feedback from one of the girls!!! Here it goes:

"haha saya ng lifebox kanina. Haha weiw....guard your heart....."


Yes almost all of them have heart issue, I mean relationship issue with the opposite gender. I'm very much thankful that Daddy enabled me to be there and so does providing the wisdom for instant sharing about love life, being His princess and IT"S STILL NOT THE SEASON FOR THEM. Bata pa sila! hahaha



It's revealed to me that growing more and more in Him is really a glorious experience , most especially we you got to share and help others.


This day ended in a very funny note.

I went with a sister in faith at her aunt's birthday party. I'm so glad to make her joyful today:) She's really nice! It's pretty much strange for me (I have NBSB !) though to be paired with someone I just met  (the Filipino concept "reto"). The mom is the one getting my number! imagine!!!


Daddy revealed to me that I must be excited also to meet the family of my MOG :) (Man of God) and indeed, I'm so excited now, that I already prayed for them, especially my mother-in-law. HAHA. It would be wonderful to have a great relationship with her. To cook with her and all :)

I also realized that it's rewarding (very much) to be secured in Christ and to know my value. I got that God-given confidence which hindered me to be timid like I used to be.


Wow. By going, you really don't know the surprises coming.

Courageous, that's ought we we're to be.