"Hungry (Falling On My Knees)"

This afternoon that I just feel so sad I don't know why..so burdened..so down..His joy..oh His joy...One of His way to encourage me, I discovered this song by Joy Williams: 

Hungry I come to You

For I know You satisfy

I am empty but I know

Your love does not run dry

So I wait for You

So I wait for You

I'm falling on my knees

Offering all my needs

Jesus You're all

This heart is living for

Broken I run to You

For Your arms are open wide

I am weary but I know Your touch

Restores my life

So I wait for You

So I wait for You

LIFEbox PUP unstoPUPble Team Building 2014 for a Grapeindor!

I just really enjoyed yesterday and I missed my teammates so much! (Grapeindor! - from Harry Potter's Griffindor) I gotta write about what happened! :) I gotta share!


It's such a privilege to be the Alumni Admin  and to be with this family. :) We won the best effort team and the best in cheering. :) Not just that,  I think I won too. I won in seeing firsthand on how my group mates' heart develop for the team. Ending up volunteering,sharing ideas, caring for each other deeply and messaging, liking sharing our Creative shot pic. It's just amazing on how we all wanted to just Honor God in everything we'll do.

Sabi nga ng aming leader na si Matt, if we will not grow in this event, bale wala din ito. I believe sobrang grabe yung growth ng bawat isa. Personally, grabe. Who would've thought that they would choose me to be an Admin this year?! Nun palang talaga nag saya ko na and yung prayer is to be the Admin that He wants me to be. I hope nagampanan ko sya ng maayos. Maging maayos lang sila, okay na. And sobrang lungkot when you realized na minsan may pagkukulang ka din. Whew, by Grace we made it. I made it. Amazing! :)


Here are the pics:

I love the name on Shirt! :)

Good Morning! Jesus! #NOOTHERNAME 

Hope for my Heart

I just don't know why I'm feeling sad and I just don't know why I'm crying. Tears just fell when I read the words "I loved you at your darkest".  Not because I felt "sadder" of course but because I felt free again to come to Him.. I just want to share whatever I'm feeling.

Maybe it's still all about  guilt. I feel so guilty every time I will not eat or delay it to save money. I will feel so guilty every time I would buy food  when I'm not supposed to (dahil naka budget na ). I feel so guilty that maybe I'm not praying enough. I feel so guilty because I don't feel like liking other group's entry. I feel so guilty for not treating a friend right and for not being generous to her..I feel so guilty that maybe I'm not encouraging Monica enough or maybe I'm not being a good Admin in our Team Building. I feel so guilty that I'm not having that fruitful Quiet Time with Dad nowadays. I just so miss Him. I feel so guilty that I don't look blooming every day (seriously) meaning I feel guilty that maybe Christ is not seen in me.   I feel so guilty of not having a costume for our Halloween party, for not being sure if I'll go there first before going to Ate Misha's wedding..guilty..guilty..guilty...

Sometimes, I  lose hope for my heart. I feel so frustrated as to why I'm like this. I'm wondering if  I will change, that my heart could just be new and have His heart in a snap at all times. I feel so weak.
It seems that I can't do anything. I feel so sleepy and time just passes by. Looking in the blogs and sites, looking at people's IG. It seems that they're having a life and me watching and adoring it instead of having my own.


Obviously, there are lies in my head right now. But here's the truth:

There's always hope in Him. I'm being sanctified. I am predestined to be like Christ (that's a promise). His Grace is sufficient. His power is made perfect in weakness.He adores me. He will help me  to take good care of my body and to be a good steward at the same time. He loves me and nothing and no one could ever change that. In all of these all I could do is just continue to believe and have faith.
As they say "Faith  is not a feeling." Trust. Continue to worship. Fight to seek Him. Cry and pour out my heart to Him. He understands..He understands..much that I can't understand myself..

Then I remember,  smile..for Jesus.

Sweet Friday!

So Sweet of my SL. Late birthday treat! Yay! :)