Waiting

You just want the tears to stop but you want to write. You know they will keep flowing. 

There's just so much fear and you realized you're holding on to it too much. 

You just can't let go anymore.

 The hopes and dreams ...the expectations...the assurance...

Replaced with changes, doubts, hesitations

Slowly feeling like not being a goal, one to set aside, the not yet, the let's wait and see... 

Not enough, not performing enough, not good enough, not amazing enough, not rich enough,not  wise enough, not a blessing enough, not fun enough, not secured enough

Oh being known

But You know and loved. 

You know and died...

You know and lived again..

You know and pursued..

You know and stayed

You know and kept on loving

You made me smile

You made me laugh

You cheered me on 

You saw me as a blessing, a reward...

You believed I can 

I just can't without You

I can't rise above who I am right now 

Without You

We'll wait again and listen 

As long as You want  to 

We'll love

As long as he wants to 

We'll surrender

The pursuit never stops

The radiance remains 

Shine and live the beauty He has 

To have you is a blessing, it is a reward

Smile and breathe, my Lady

Be in awe of your Majesty

Ask and act

You'll always have Him. 

You'll always have Him.

Always.