God in my 2020

If there's one Word that would describe my 2020, it's the Word "new". God promised new things and now as I look back, I perceive it clearer. Indeed, He is faithful in His promises. 

There were new roles, new people, new challenges, new experiences, new discoveries, new miracles, new answered prayers, same powerful God. 

Here I am remembering how God moved and made things new in my 2020. 

New role

This year, gave me a love story scripted by Him. 

I became Jayson's girlfriend. I said yes to this personal new normal. :) 

New people 

This year I met Team Comets, Kuya Albert, Kuya Bob. We had a prayer meeting at 6pm everyday. I also met Jayson's family, relatives and friends. 

New challenges

The pandemic happened and I was not able to go to work for months. I was anxious to go out. I was very cautious . Masks were so expensive, people lined up in the groceries, there were curfews, we needed to have an ID to go out. I was not able to go home for my mom's birthday. I also lost my beloved cousin Jhared. The morning that I lost him was one of the worst. Thanking God for sustaining us. 

New experiences

Because of the quarantine that lasted for months, I experienced new things. I became fascinated with herbs and plants. I bought basil, parsley, sinus, chili, garlic and blue ternatea!!! I miss them! 

Went to a valentine date. 

Received flowers. 🌻🌹

Attended services and VGs online. 

Got a salon-like experience courtesy of Daisy! She gave me mani and pedi, hair cut and foot spa.

New place 

Been praying to see a white sand beach for years and to travel with family and finally God answered that prayer this year! We 

 went to Calaguas!! Kaya pala Ang aga ng beach Namin (January pa lang). 

New discoveries

It's the year I learned more about my personality and things to improve. 

I learned my gentle-supportive personality, my love language (quality time), lack of assertiveness and authority  which were really challenging. 😅 

I learned things to improve in the way I speak, laugh, respond, act, work..

There were times I'm overwhelmed and I don't know who I am anymore but I just go back to agreeing to who He says I am and to aim to be more like Christ ( which is the ultimate goal). 

Only He can transform me.

New miracles 

My brother had a positive result on the antibody test against COVID19 and I remember fighting so hard in prayers for his life. Now I can see His miracle in my eyes. My brother is  here now at home playing music for our new year celebration! Of course, it's not me who ultimately fought, but Jesus for his life. I'm extremely grateful! 

I still have a job!!! After so many rejection, God worked for me to be in a work from home set up. 

He also didn't allow me to grow hungry even if I don't have a job. Amazing provider!!

New answered prayers 

Every start of the year, I write my faith Goals. Though my plan has been changed a lot. God still allowed these things to happen and I'm grateful:

To keep learning - I got a TESOL certificate and finished a purple book class! 

To have better life skills- cooked a lot of pasta during pandemic

To lead my own VG

To one to one more women - Edlyn, Maro, Didith

Great health - not hospitalized this year! 

Ref

Start reviewing for LET. 

In all these one thing is not new - God. 

 He's the same God who loves me and make things happen. 

That's still my confidence in 2021. 

All praises to Your Name, Jesus!!!!

Jhared

 

It's been less than three months and I’m still not sure if kakayanin ko to write about it. This is me trying.

It’s been less than three months since I lost the boy I loved the most and today is his first birthday that he’s nowhere anywhere on earth.

Hala ilang sentence pa lang iyak agad? Haha.

Oh that boy I prayed for when he was still in his mom’s womb.
(I wanted so much to name him “Yael” but of course the parents refused haha.)

The boy I hugged, played with and held hands with when we lost our grandmothers.

The boy who became my subject in a case study as I studied child development. Grateful that it allowed me to spend more time with him and to really observe his development...

The boy I envisioned to also study in UP (he used to wear my ID hehe), a drummer sa worship team, our world changer..

I attended a Sunday service with him one time. After watching a video about what God is doing in Laos, my heart was blessed when he chose to give what he had to the missions. At 7, God already used him to bless another nation!

The boy who suddenly whispered to me while we’re riding a jeepney…


Jhared: Ate May kailan ka ba magkaka boyfriend?”

Me: Hah? Hindi ko alam….

Bakit gusto mo na ko magka boyfriend?

J: Para may kasama ka na...


Grateful that God still allowed Jhared to meet Jayson. (We just didn’t know it was the first and last. )


Oh hat boy who wakes me up in the morning with my Bible on his hand for he’s so excited to hear Bible stories.


“Ate May, Jesus na tayo?”


So grateful for the privilege of sharing what Jesus did on the cross just to save him, us.
I know he knows that Jesus will always be our greatest superhero. (Now si Jesus na mismo nagkwekwento sa kanya)


Blessed birthday there with Jesus baby ko!

Grateful for He let us be with you for 8 years...almost 9. :)

Ate May loves and misses you so much!


Grateful that Jesus is real, heaven is real, and I’m sure to hug you again.

How did you become God's princess?

Beautiful ball gowns, dreaming, singing, dancing, happily ever after! 

Sobrang natutuwa ako kapag nanunuod ako ng mga Disney princesses movies. 

Ang gagaling at ang gaganda nila di ba? 

Mahilig din ako magbasa ng mga articles tungkol kay Kate Middleton or just looking at her pictures (Isn't she lovely?). 

I'm so fascinated with what it's like to be a royal - a princess. I used to wonder what it's like. I hoped I could be one but it's just nowhere near my reality. 

Ikaw din ba? Do you also wonder what it's like to be a princess? Do you also wish you could be one but you think it's  nowhere near your reality? 

We'll let me tell you.. 

You can be one!

But how?

How can you be a princess? 

A real princess - God's princess.

Originally, because of sin (we're all sinners btw), we're far from being a princess. 

We're actually worse than slaves, worse than beggars. 

We were actually one of the King's enemy. 

We deserve nothing but hell. 

All the good works and good things that were doing ay parang mga basahan lang dahil we're all sinners to the core.

Naimagine ko si Cinderella in her filthy dress. 

(She just can't be with the prince wearing that!)

And we just can't be with our Holy King wearing our sins. 

Our King doesn't want that. Our loving King desires to be with us and He had a plan.

  

He gave His one and only Prince for us. 

The Prince - Jesus  took all the punishment needed for our sins on the cross.

He chose to wear our filthy clothing and gave His pure Royal robe to us...

To you.. and be with you forever...

Do you want to receive it? 

Do you want to be a real princess now? 

Let me help you. 

Heavenly Father - my one true King,

Thank You so much for loving me so much even when I was not in any way acting as Your princess. You saw me at my worst but still You sent Your one and only Prince to save me.  

I receive Jesus in my heart. I receive His royal robe. I receive His gift of eternal life. 

I believe that He alone can save me, not my good works. 

I'm so sorry for my sins. I'm sorry that I've hurt You. Thank You for the forgiveness. Help me not to repeat them for they are not for Your princess. 

Teach me the ways of Your Kingdom and help me to love, trust and obey You more and more each day. 

May I just be the princess, the daughter that You want me to be. 

Help me live out my true identity. 

Here I am my King, mold me. 

Here I am my King, use me for Your glory. 

In Jesus name. 

Amen.

Congratulations!  

Oh what a beautiful ball gown you're wearing now!

 This moment is even more beautiful and glorious when Cinderella was transforming and wearing that beautiful ball gown! 

By faith, and by His amazing grace, you are now a princess- God's princess.

A princess of the realest and highest Kingdom! 

(Now that's even better than the Disney Princesses or Kate Middleton! ;) )

The King is enthralled by your beauty...honor Him, for He is your Lord. 

Psalm 45:11 

P.S. 

To  know more about our King, the Prince and the Kingdom, please do have, read and live the most wonderful book - The Bible.