I wanna set the world on fire
Until it's burning bright for You
It's everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?
Just like how it is in the song:
I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
Nothing I can not do
Nothing I cannot do
Last Saturday (February 10, 2018) marked my first participation in an out of town outreach event. It happened over at Sitio Banawen, San Felipe Zambales.
My journey towards this event and the event itself was simply amazing.
Last December, we had a dinner bonding with my Kids ministry family. I wanted to give something to my co-volunteers to remind them of God's faithfulness over the year 2017. I thought of giving them printed pictures of some of the highlights of their year. I visited their timelines and chose pictures! One of the pictures that I loved was the picture of the children smiling in Teacher Jayson's post (he's a part of a movement called Hike for Christ Movement and they had an outreach event in a community last December). I chose that picture and gave it to him. He talked about it and the movement over our dinner and in my heart, I uttered "Dad, I hope I could also do something like that".
I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across the farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father's hands
I liked the facebook page of Hike for Christ Movement (HFCM) sometime last year and I started to see their posts. I was thrilled to discover that they will have an event soon and it's an "Engage" event! Children + Evangelism! Oh, my heart. Hehe. "Dad, can I be part of that?"
I remembered this Word:
For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. Ephesians 2:10
He planned for me to do good things. He created me anew for these things. WHOA.
I sent them a message, clicked going, last two slots na lang but still can't help but be so excited!
But a few weeks before the event, doubts crept in and so does fear.
I doubted my motivation and intention. Am I really doing this for Him alone or am I just gonna do it for myself? :"( I needed some time to think about that because, I'm not so sure of my heart. I needed to surrender to Him and to His purposes and will alone. "Dad, I don' t want to go if this is just about me and my selfish desires."
Fear crept in too. I talked to my friends about it and one well- meaning friend asked me if I'm sure about it because she heard some volunteers died few years ago while crossing a river for an outreach event. The other volunteers were also traumatized. She asked if we have to cross a river, and I said I'm not sure. She advised me that if we have to cross a river, please, if possible, ask for another route.
I started asking, "Dad, is this wise?Should I back out if we have to cross a river? Is this really Your will for me? "
I'm really amazed when He let me encounter these words:
"...stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain." 1 Corinthians 15:58
Princess. in awe. indeed.
GRABE. Okay, so stand firm daw. Trust tayo.
He knows I needed more encouragement so eto pa..
For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. Psalm 91:11-12
For you were slaughtered, and your blood has ransomed people for God from every tribe and language and people and nation. Revelation 5:9b
The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." Exodus 33:14
YAY!!!! Okay, Lord. Let's do this!!!!
Along the way, I'm amazed at how supportive my friends and co-workers are. They gave hygiene kits and donated. I'm beyond grateful for their beautiful hearts! This made me so excited.
Feb. 9 Prepared and slept for an hour
Feb. 10 Walked around Cubao at almost midnight. I'm not sure kung may jeep pa from SM Fairview na dadaan sa may P. Tuazon. Inhale. Exhale.
And, yay! Meron pang jeep! I had a little accident though. Biglang nag preno yung driver because of a cat. Hindi ako nakahawak. My right knee hit the metal at the back of the driver. Huhuhu. "Dad, please. May it not be serious." I started to kinda panic because it's painful nung tatawid na ko, bigla pang may truck na mabilis so I had to walk faster. Wahhhh! Whew. Great thing that I could still walk well. (Right now, I noticed na may pasa pa din yung knee ko. hehe)
Anyway! I arrived at the meeting place (Jollibee) and awkwardly asked a woman inside if they are from HFCM. She shaked their head though. Texted someone from HFCM and asked where they are. He said that they're outside near a speaker.
Yay! I found them! I met Grace and Mat (Hi girls! It's so lovely to meet you!) . It's Mat's first time too and we had good chat. I also met Van and eventually, Jayson arrived and introduced Pao to us. It's her first time too! She is such a sweet young woman. I'm so happy that we're on the same van - Van 1!
We also met the other volunteers inside the van and prayed before we go. It was kinda hard to sleep. I don't know.. did I sleep? Maybe I did.Hehe. It was cold and I regret not bringing my sweater. :"( Anyway, I'm happy that the other volunteers could finally have a good rest. Hopefully. Hehe.
Ate at Jollibee for breakfast. (I don't know kung saang Jollibee na haha)
Chaye (HFCM's founder) said something that made me blush. HAHAHAHA. Ayoko na sabihin. I'll just keep it in my heart. I'm sooooo grateful to finally meet her!!!! (Hi Chaye, if you're reading this, I also want to say to you what you said to me (I hope you remember) and even more because I also saw a glimpse of your beautiful heart!!!)
Went back to the van. Tried to sleep and the sun is rising.
Eventually, we're there! The mountains greeted us. Had a huddle time.Prayed. Got my shirt (Oh, the shirt's awesome!). Carabaos arrived and flashback starts. I remember riding it when I was young in a harvest season (pauwi galing bukid at nakahiga sa mga sako ng palay). Hehe. This time, walang palay (just our bags) and sumakay kami. :") It's wonderful to experience it again.
Nung tamawid na kami ng unang ilog (eto na, yung ilog!), I was riding the carabao and I was staring at my feet and the water. I remember His word for me:
For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. Psalm 91:11-12
Biglang nagkapakpak yung kalabaw sa paningin ko. It's like an angel used by God for me at that time. HEHEHEHE. Kasi nga na amazed ako na nakaangat yung paa ko sa ilog habang tumatawid!
Glad to have good chat and hugot with other volunteers too like Dina, Albert and Earl!
Pao and I eventually walked and encountered yung iba pang mga ilog na mababaw lang. I thought,
"eto ba yung mga ilog na kinatakutan ko? Awww Dad, sorry."
Now, when I close my eyes I can still remember the lahar on my feet, the clear water, yung mga talahib and the mountains!!!!
We arrived at Sitio Banawen at around almost 11 AM. We had our morning devotion and I'm amazed that Lorainne shared the Word that God gave to me for the new year - Ephesians 2:10!!!!!
For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. :")
We had a delicious early lunch (tinola and tilapiaaa)!!!! And I got another answered prayer (It was a prayer to Daddy to really help and not be a burden)! Earl asked me to help him as he share the Bible story to the kids. (Earl, I hope I did help you. HAHA)
Find Me. HAHA |
Had a huddle time with the kids! I talked with two girls and three boys with random ages. It's warms my heart that they know Jesus. I think when they know Him and call unto Him, they are rich in life already. Why did I say that? because I experienced talking to well-off children who doesn't even know His Name. One once told me, "Jesus, what's that?" That's one of the most heartbreaking thing and worst than being poor for me.
Okay so back to our huddle time, I pounded more how great God is in creating things and even greater because He sent Jesus for us. He gave His best for us and nothing is impossible with Him. I wanted to inspire them to keep on dreaming and lift their future to Him. I asked them what they want to be and they answered that they want to be a soldier, policeman, teacher and ...a Pastor! An 11 year-old boy said it! WHOA. Oh, I really hope he would be!!!
We had a group picture and we started giving the hygiene kits, Chicken Joy, toys, juices, Bibles and some clothes. It was challenging at first to keep things organized because the people we're pretty aggressive and ... excited? hehe. Eventually, it was okay and I had a little chat with other kids as well. I met Aileen, a pretty girl and had a small talk with her and her sister-in-law too. I'm surprised when she asked for my number. hehe. I also had a chance to talk to a grandmother. I asked her if she's happy that we're there and she smiled brightly with her yes. :")
We ate an egg sandwich, cleaned the place, took some pictures, took the group picture, more pictures and rode the carabao again going home.
After 2 and a half hours of staring at the mountains, sharing stories, jokes (HAHAHA PAO!!!!!) , sound trip, praise and worship, we arrived where our vans are. Changed clothes, went inside the van, prayed and exchange stories and funny moments.
Slept and woke up to eat dinner. We ate at Rico's (I think that's in Subic). Listened to a love story and ate Sinigang na Hipon after a long wait. We went back to the van and sleep... ... .... ....woke up at times and then sleep... ... ...sleep. And tanannnnn! Hello Cubao! :")
Thank You Daddy God for our safety!
Awww. It's time to say goodbye to one of the best 24 hours of my life. Bid goodbye to the other volunteers and I'm sad. I walked with Van and Renjo going to Farmers. Arrived at home at around 1 AM and slept with a supeeerrrr happy heart. :")
Oh what a privilege!
I'm excited to go and make JESUS famous again in the mountains!
O Lord my God, you have performed many wonders for us.
Your plans for us are too numerous to list.
You have no equal.
If I tried to recite all your wonderful deeds,
I would never come to the end of them. Psalm 40:5 New Living Translation (NLT)
My hands, my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me
1st Photo by Les Anderson on Unsplash
Other photos are from Pao, Dina and Kuya Ronald :")
1st Photo by Les Anderson on Unsplash
Other photos are from Pao, Dina and Kuya Ronald :")
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