"Hungry (Falling On My Knees)"

This afternoon that I just feel so sad I don't know why..so burdened..so down..His joy..oh His joy...One of His way to encourage me, I discovered this song by Joy Williams: 

Hungry I come to You

For I know You satisfy

I am empty but I know

Your love does not run dry

So I wait for You

So I wait for You

I'm falling on my knees

Offering all my needs

Jesus You're all

This heart is living for

Broken I run to You

For Your arms are open wide

I am weary but I know Your touch

Restores my life

So I wait for You

So I wait for You

LIFEbox PUP unstoPUPble Team Building 2014 for a Grapeindor!

I just really enjoyed yesterday and I missed my teammates so much! (Grapeindor! - from Harry Potter's Griffindor) I gotta write about what happened! :) I gotta share!


It's such a privilege to be the Alumni Admin  and to be with this family. :) We won the best effort team and the best in cheering. :) Not just that,  I think I won too. I won in seeing firsthand on how my group mates' heart develop for the team. Ending up volunteering,sharing ideas, caring for each other deeply and messaging, liking sharing our Creative shot pic. It's just amazing on how we all wanted to just Honor God in everything we'll do.

Sabi nga ng aming leader na si Matt, if we will not grow in this event, bale wala din ito. I believe sobrang grabe yung growth ng bawat isa. Personally, grabe. Who would've thought that they would choose me to be an Admin this year?! Nun palang talaga nag saya ko na and yung prayer is to be the Admin that He wants me to be. I hope nagampanan ko sya ng maayos. Maging maayos lang sila, okay na. And sobrang lungkot when you realized na minsan may pagkukulang ka din. Whew, by Grace we made it. I made it. Amazing! :)


Here are the pics:

I love the name on Shirt! :)

Good Morning! Jesus! #NOOTHERNAME 

Hope for my Heart

I just don't know why I'm feeling sad and I just don't know why I'm crying. Tears just fell when I read the words "I loved you at your darkest".  Not because I felt "sadder" of course but because I felt free again to come to Him.. I just want to share whatever I'm feeling.

Maybe it's still all about  guilt. I feel so guilty every time I will not eat or delay it to save money. I will feel so guilty every time I would buy food  when I'm not supposed to (dahil naka budget na ). I feel so guilty that maybe I'm not praying enough. I feel so guilty because I don't feel like liking other group's entry. I feel so guilty for not treating a friend right and for not being generous to her..I feel so guilty that maybe I'm not encouraging Monica enough or maybe I'm not being a good Admin in our Team Building. I feel so guilty that I'm not having that fruitful Quiet Time with Dad nowadays. I just so miss Him. I feel so guilty that I don't look blooming every day (seriously) meaning I feel guilty that maybe Christ is not seen in me.   I feel so guilty of not having a costume for our Halloween party, for not being sure if I'll go there first before going to Ate Misha's wedding..guilty..guilty..guilty...

Sometimes, I  lose hope for my heart. I feel so frustrated as to why I'm like this. I'm wondering if  I will change, that my heart could just be new and have His heart in a snap at all times. I feel so weak.
It seems that I can't do anything. I feel so sleepy and time just passes by. Looking in the blogs and sites, looking at people's IG. It seems that they're having a life and me watching and adoring it instead of having my own.


Obviously, there are lies in my head right now. But here's the truth:

There's always hope in Him. I'm being sanctified. I am predestined to be like Christ (that's a promise). His Grace is sufficient. His power is made perfect in weakness.He adores me. He will help me  to take good care of my body and to be a good steward at the same time. He loves me and nothing and no one could ever change that. In all of these all I could do is just continue to believe and have faith.
As they say "Faith  is not a feeling." Trust. Continue to worship. Fight to seek Him. Cry and pour out my heart to Him. He understands..He understands..much that I can't understand myself..

Then I remember,  smile..for Jesus.

Sweet Friday!

So Sweet of my SL. Late birthday treat! Yay! :) 

Save Payatas and Saved Festival

The last day of being 21 was such a meaningful one! It's one of the best days of my life! We went to Payatas Kids Church and then straight to Saved Festival! :)

Earlier that morning! So fresh! :) 

Pinoy Henyo Team 4 Edition! 

Oh when the Kids pray!!!!

Men of God!!!!

Their testimony made me cry!!! AMAZING GOD! HE IS MIGHTY TO SAVE!!!!

with my co Ms. World. (according to Dyna, parang daw kaming Ms. World. hahaha!

SAVED FESTIVAL 2014!!!!!

Crowd!!!!!!!

Best concert buddies!! I just love worshiping and praising with them I can still remember our "moves"!!!

It's my birthday already at this time. Yay! What a Salubong! I was worshiping and telling Daddy how amazing He is
at 12 midnight!!!

Photos Courtesy of: Anatalia Cateras, Cath Rafaela, Gabby Ternida, Jo-Marie Bala and Desserie Dionio's FAcebook account. :) 

12 ways to make a Birthday Celebrant smile Brighter!

It's the day after my birthday. I just can't help but realize things that actually made my heart flutter and made my smile brighter yesterday and also, at the same time I realized  those things that I hope happened.   I can't help but to desire to do the  things that would make me smile  to the people around me.  As the Bible says..


So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets. - Matthew 7:12


And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' - Matthew 22:39

So here's the list of what I think would be sweeter for a birthday celebrant:


1. Greet them hours ahead! :)

Someone texted me or greeted me hours before my birthday! The fact that they don't need Facebook to remember. And oh the thought that someone's anticipating it (not just you, haha) ! :)


2. Prepare the gift ahead of time (pray for it as well).

Honestly, it's pretty sad when pahabol ang gift. Pero the birthday celebrant would appreciate pa din naman (mas masakit ata yung sasabihin na ihahabol pero waley din di ba?)  I think preparing the gift shows an anticipation as well for your friend's special day. :)


3. Prepare a little surprise.

I saw a gift under my pillows before I go to sleep! :)


4. Greet them longer.  :)

Astig yung mga greeting na may encouragements! Reminiscing the past..at pambobola. Joke. :) really..it's so wonderful..:)



Bessy! happy birthday :)))
6 na taon na taung magkaibigan and counting
Best alam mo naman 1 txt lang ako lage hehehe salamat sa lahat2. Kung di dahil sayo di rin ako magiging matatag. Ikaw na best. I miss you. I love you. Mag ingat ka. Lapit na date natin ulit hehehe. Ayan sana best maging masaya ka ngayon.. mahal na mahal ka ng daddy natin :)))) - Emat Santos


happy bday Jessica May Padayao,,, my beautiful friend and sister in Christ... I wish you all the best Thank you for being such a good example,leader and friend... We love youuuuuuuuu hart hart - Melajoy Reyes

happy birthday po. stay strong apo push to follow wherever God may lead you. if it's His will He'll provide for the bill - Miguel Murosato

Sa isa sa pinaka sweet at caring kong Ate sa PUP, Ate Aikaaaaah! Happy Birthday, Ate! Your life is such a blessing sa maraming tao. Sobrang labs kita dahil isa ka sa pinaka sincere na taong nakilala ko. Thank you Ate sa pagiging mabuti mo sakin. Salamat sa pagiging Ate nung kabataan ko! Hahahaha. Thank you Ate! Enjoy your day! Continue to be in awe sa pag ibig ni Lord. I love you Ate like real sisters do. -Eva Sta. Ana

happy birthday po ate ycah .. always take care po.. and I know that you know how much we love ate.. sorry for everything .. but thank you so much for always there for us and i hope you won't change.. - Vina Negad

5. May lagay ng sweet hashtag sa post.

‪#‎HBDAteYcah‬
‪#‎oneoftheBestAteEver‬
‪#‎WomanofGod‬

6. Greet with Picture 

7. Through a Text Message or FB message.

Nakaka touch lalo na nga yung maas mahaba. :) I can't type Heart's message to me but I loved it so much. :) 

Ycah~! Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu~! Happy happy Birthday~!

Continue shining so that more people will feel God's love for us~!

Maybe I haven't told you this but Thank you for being a blessing in my life...

God bless you always~!  - Honey Vhel



Happy happy birthday sayo mahal naming ina :******* salamat po sa time nyo para tulungan kaming maggrow sa relationship namin kay God we will never ever forget you for the rest of our lives.thank you very much may god continue to bless you every minute of the day.this is your special day. :))) love you ate ycah :**** Godbless and Good health. - Monica Sarmiento 

8. Don't greet her for years and then greet  her this year 

HAHAHA! #hugot lang 

9. Call

I think this is so wonderful. :) 

10. Just thank her for what who she is to you or for the friendship. 

:)

11. Share a Word to her. :) 

12. Greet her at 12 midnight. :) 

or minutes after . :) 

Well, actually, kahit na makita ko lang ang name  a timeline or sa inbox ko greeting me. Sobrang saya ko na eh. My heart is so full already. :) 

Birthdays are  so AMAZING!!!! 

The best way though is reminding her that You died for her, of her destiny in You..of Your unending, unfailing, ever-faithful LOVE for her.. (Oooops that's what Daddy God did.Hehehe) 

Thanks be to God for everyone who came into my life. :)

Thanks for the Greetings and Gifts and the friendship and love in between!! :) 

22

When I'm 21

When I'm 21... (because I'll never be 21 again)


All glory to Daddy God alone. In every moment between of these events, He is there.  :)



When I'm 21....



I became the best teacher.

I had my own VG.
I experience my First Christmas as an Employee!  


A cat bit me. 
I arranged an High School event. :

I became an admin (for the team building!    

I exhort the Intercessors!   
I saw falls (Taytay Rizal) and swam in a river ! 


I wrote my salvation story!

I entered Araneta Coliseum (for Hillsong United Concert)!   


I went to see and help kids in Tondo (Joy of Giving). :)  

I shared the Gospel to my Mom and brother. :)   


I got an NLT version of a Bible.  


I went to see and help the kids in Payatas. (with team 4 family)  

I accepted my calling as an evangelist (Leader's convergence).  


I applied for Missions (Kyrgyzstan!) . :)   

I did the God test in my company and alma mater. :)   



*I super love the graphics.

God Testing a girl at PUP Manila

It's Korea's Hangeul day so I don't need to go to work yesterday. In the morning, I showered myself with His Word through devotions. Everything's incredibly about sharing the Gospel!

One person at a time.
2 Corinthians 2:1-5
Romans 1: 1-17
Leader's Camp Podcast by Ptra. Faythe Santiago

I just had a vision/desire of doing the God test in PUP. (Ooops I should post something about Leader's Convergence and God's Not Dead and the God Test  but well yeah,maybe soon. Here's the link  for you to further understand what the God Test is : http://www.thegodtest.org/


I asked  my Spiritual Daughters to come with me,  but due to some circumstances, they can't make it. I went to PUP - alone.

Looked around..looked for that one alone girl that I'll share the Gospel with. When I sat near the Chapel..I saw one girl! She's glowing (I mean when you got a target, she just glows..right? whatever. Haha) But fear ate me up. Whoo.. Inhale, exhale..when I got the courage, suddenly her friends came!! whut? huhuhu.

I stayed in my place hoping for one more girl to be alone (oh, how I wish  girls to be alone just for yesterday) A girl came near me! NEAR ME! I can't believe the opportunities but just like on the first girl..I hesitated. What?  yeah, I did and I'm..


As ate Maricar said to me last week, when that happens, usually, the flesh and the spirit were fighting. It's like there's really a battle inside. It's so frustrating when I let my fears and doubts to win. :(


Walked around again, I decided to go to the linear park. It's such a memorable place to me because we used to have a VG there.  As the wind  and the not-so-good smell greeted me, I just remember that I also lifted up all of my plans after graduation here.

I sit down for I could see a girl studying alone  (but she seems so busy and serious). Sighing, there are couples around too. :( I'm slowly losing hope..Suddenly  another girl is coming! She sat down near me...My heart fluttered..I just know..I should do this.. I should do this.. I could do this...come on!!! I just can't stop looking at her. So nervous and all. haha!



So there, I relied on the Spirit. I introduced myself. Smile. Kinakabahan to be rejected but the go lang! Wal nang atrasan ito! Question 1 - 9..whew..and then 10 "Are you willing to follow Christ and trust Him with your life?"


She nod.

Me: "Yes?"

"Yes!"


We prayed.
I prayed for her.
I asked for a prayer request.
We prayed for her Mom.
And she cried.


I realized, grabe, how much more students pa ang kailangan ng prayers for the situations that they're in? Oh there's so much more students who need Jesus - the answer to everything!!!!


Tara, mag God Test pa!

It's not easy but it's simple.

There would still be battles. But His Spirit will win. You know we're fighting from victory right?


"Hello PUPian, want to take the God Test?" :)