I choose to Love

You're my beloved..you're my bride..

Listening to Kari Jobe's My Beloved while sitting here after another day at the field.

The song is somehow is my comfort song, not the song itself, but the knowledge of Who is singing this to me. :)

Disclaimer. I'm not gonna write about the song or something...

 but about the "another day at the field" part.

Got it? Okay. Breathe. :)

Imagine my joy when once again I got the chance of witnessing and learning media stuffs outside the station itself. And yes, indeed, I didn't fail to witness and learn.

We interviewed an owner of a coffee shop this morning and their black forest was pretty much amazing and  I learned about silence. 

Prayed.

Ate PANCIT! PUTO! BBQ! LUMPIANG SHANGHAI! (they have to be capitalized since it's like a Fiesta).

We then move on to a freelancer and my heart is just beating for event organizing. OR Maybe for my "forever at 21" Birthday Celebration :)

Answered prayer. We got a lessor at the House of Representatives! and It just marked my first time at the congress 9 I learned to be a model in front of Batasan, bet yah! A professional cameraman holds the cam yow. So blessed!)  I learned about mission within the Philippines. Since I'm just accustomed with a mission within campus and other nation, not really.... at mountains of the Phil.

Going back at the station after a long day of work and food, I thought that would be all. I thought..something's already different, I thought something's just so right.

Friendships. Meaningful Relationships. Acceptance.

As I viewed images, memories and feelings...What's within surprisingly came out. 

They also thought of the things others are thinking about. 

I thought again, I will not be affected, I will not be affected...I will not be affected...

But here I am writing about it.

Yes I'm affected. Maybe before, I cried, got so down and all. But at this moment, when pain starts to come in...

I just  looked at the sky..."Jesus...who am I without You?  without Your security? without Your forgiveness? without Your unconditional love? I think these people won't love me anymore as You love me..." 

Then He asked me.."does it matter if they love you back? if they treat you better? what really matters to you?" 

I thought in a while what really do matters to me..."it's You!" I answered...

"yes, it's Me...and how do I love you? How do I love them?"

I whispered, "unconditionally...."

...

He chose to love even at those times that He's drowning at incomparable physical and emotional  pain.  

In the midst of rejection, He chose to give His all. 

He chose to love...He chose to love...

I'll always be His beloved and I, Ycah, just like the One who chose to love me, choose to love.

This Tuesday with Mom Lanie

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She is used.


Used by our Heavenly Father, for Him to have an encounter with us.

And today as I listened to her, He's still using her.always and forever.


Revelations. Learnings. Better faith.



. There's a black mail

The enemy would insert "what ifs" or something that we can't just let go...it will make you afraid of losing this or experience that. Stand firm on what you believe. they will not break a wall, they will enter a gate, which is your weakness. Dun ka talaga titirahin.

. In Jesus' name, by the Blood of Christ anything is possible.


There's a power in declaration. Believe that you are victorious.He did it all! Bayad tayo ni Jesus!


.choose your battle field

There are times that we wanted to save a certain church (most especially the church that you grew up with), it's like battling inside there teritory which is very much unwise. Choose your battle field well, take a stand.

. so what if I lose my life?

Afraid of dying? afraid of something that might happen?DECIDE and STAND firmly on your FAITH. BELIEVE that no matter what, HE IS WITH YOU ALWAYS. Do not compromise. Yun yon. Let go and Let GOD.

. He knows

He knows whatever you're feeling and whatever you're going through, but without a communication, it's not healthy for your relationship with Him. He is your Father, go to Him and tell Him. Do not just shrugged of whatever you're going through. Much like on a parent-child relationship. Sometimes, your Mom just know that something's happening in your life, she is hurt because you bother to tell your friends more than her...but then....what a glorious day when you finally decide to share with her all your burdens...


We need communication for a healthy relationship. Cry out to Him.


. let her to be save first


It's regarding my friends heart for discipleship. Don't pressure myself, most especially her...it will come.. and she will understand....

.struggles turn into strengths

Hah. This insecurity issue that I went through? I believe this would be my strength and one of the great testimonies that I could have with women. Be secured in His love.

.walang Kristyanong Talunan


DECLARE. BELIEVE. We'll never ever be losers!!!!

.be constant with your walk with Him

'nuff said right. Stay on FIRE!!! HE IS ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!

. enjoy your season

It is God-given. He will prosper you there. You'll even miss that so, enjoy!

.We ask God, The Holy Spirit is the enabler and Jesus is our license


Taking off the Holy Spirit in the picture is one of the strategy so that the Trinity wouldn't be complete. :(((


.you're a threat, brace yourself


There's still more to come, but in CHRIST, we are more than conquerors.

.level up faith

in every struggle, our FAITH simply increase and increase and increase!

Are you excited?


Stay beside Him always.

Wag kang bumitaw..hindi ka Nya bibitawan..

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