between chances and consequences

I'm currently feeling it-my hands..it's shaking as I'm trying to encode my thoughts.I honestly didn't know how to transmit my feelings into the keyboard right no,but I'm trying.Please,just be patient with me.

Discreet is the word,It made one confused when someone's asking you to not be discreet about stuff.And the stuff,the stuff is the stuff that's indeed making me nervous and problematic right now,yet very privileged for the chance..I know,this could just one of the REAL once in a lifetime moments..it may not come throughout my lifetime..and to anyone else...



I'm asked to be apart of something big,i mean,really...big!!!!Huge that is the meaning of my life and that is the culprit of the crime that is me now...Just a few days ago..I almost cried thinking about changes within me,the topic I really tried to shrugged off..but I know it's existing...and now...there's something happening that I just can't let go...something's happening that would tell be directly in my face that IT'S OVER.Maybe not..but I'm getting there...

This post is nowhere to go...it's a sudden blast of something that might happen in my life or something I'll forever regret doing or not doing...In the end all I know is...

I can have the chance and the consequence...

I'll update what happened soon...