A spring of water flowed from UP!

He turned the rock into a pool of water; yes, a spring of water flowed from solid rock. - Psalm 114:8 NLT 

This post is about my  enrollment feels in UP, the recent upgrade of my faith,  and above all, His glory and power in the midst of it.


Enrollment feels

Yes, I was qualified for admission for the Certificate of Professional Education program of the Univeristy of the Philippines - Diliman (College of Education). Yes, I'm done with the orientation and  by God's grace, passed the medical exams too. Yes, I found OUR (Office of the University Registrar) , passed my  honorable dismissal from PUP and  got a temporary CRS (Computerized Registration System)  account.  Not just that.   I was also miraculously  granted a Service Incentive Leave for the day of my enrollment (January 12, 2017)!

January 12 (or so I thought). It thought it's the start for our enrollment  (Non-degree students) but it was suddenly changed into January 11!! Waaah!At, guess what? January 11 ko ito nalaman!

And SO WHAT  if it was changed? Well, have you heard? UNAHAN SA PROF/ SUBJECT SA UP!!!! I think 30 slots for undergrad subjects and around 16 slots for graduate subjects!!! I even read some blogs and news reports about students camping in school just to be the first in line for the coveted slots! Whoaaa!

So ganon pala sa UP. Will I still have slots if I'll go in the  afternoon of  January 11 or morning ng 12?

Here's what happened:

I went there in the afternoon of January 11th. I realized pwede naman pala makita sa CRS yung mga subject, sched, prof, available slots etc. pero nun ko lang nalaman. I borrowed my co-CPE student's phone and saw "0/30" or "0/16" on the subjects that I want to take. It means 0 .. zero.. wala nang slot!  Not only na wala nang slot but, hindi din pasok sa sched ko yung iba. waaaaahhh!!!!

 For pre-advising, my adviser was in a hurry since I'm the last one for the day. I was struggling with the pronunciation of the Prof's surname etc..  kinda worried because the subjects na pwede sa sched ko are the ones na wala sa plan kong i -take and at the same time, wala na din slot!

I was saddened as I remember  how panicked I was and worried. Which I know is not honoring kay God (I repent, Dad :"() . My thoughts were clouded with what ifs.. "what if hindi ako makapag enroll, what if hindi ako tanggapin ng mga prof.. what if parang maging katulad  lang din to ng missions na hindi natuloy, what if hindi ko kaya yung mga subjects? Wala ako background nun!!!"

That was the rock. THE SOLID ROCK.

I left affter the pre-advising. I decided to talk to the professors the next day. Inhale. Exhale.


Upgraded faith.

I talked to Dad at Mcdo and I'm in awe again of how He is such a comforter and encourager.


Hosea 1:7b

"..I will free them from their enemies - not with weapons and armies or horses and charioteers, but by My power as the LORD their God"

not through me, but by His power!

"Trust Me. I am your helper. I am your shield."

Hosea 2: 15a

"I will return her vineyards to her and transform the valley of trouble in to a gateway of hope."


Wow. He will transform the valley of trouble in to a gateway of hope!!!

And then, that night was the third prayer meeting in our church (Victory Ubelt). I met ate Ayen and Ate Marianne. I hastily asked them to stand with me in prayer for my current situation. It's really amazing how the church can encourage you. Ate Marianne said "Kaya yan, yung dagat nga nahati Nya eh!". Whoa. And I was reminded.

We prayed,  worshiped God, magnified His power, His sovereignty. I realized I fail to do that earlier. I saw the situation bigger than My God and that is a "No, no!"

Before we go home, Ate Marianne, prayed for me. It was so comforting and my faith was really built. I remember her saying the words, "delight in Him and He will give you the desires of you heart". "His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts."


His glory and power

I went to UP at around 8 AM the next day and waited for the professors. While I'm waiting, I tried my best to just trust in Him and His words. I was really holding my breath.  I then read these verses:

Ruth 3: 1a


And now, my daughter, don't be afraid. I will do for you all you ask.

Psalm 138:8a

The LORD will work out his plans for my life--for your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever.

Isaiah 26:3

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.


What an encouragement again!

The professor came. I talked to her and she was really hesitating at first to accept me. She sounds so nice and compassionate. Indeed an answered prayer already. She accepted me even though 0/16 na. She made the maximum number of students into 17 so may isa pang slot for me! I want to cry in front of her! Salamat po sa pink slip!

Not just that! She's also the one who talked to the other prof if may slot pa for me.  She said "Yes!" she can also change the maximum number of student. From 17 to 18!!!


Oh how our God moved!

"See my daughter, see how I've made it happen."

What-a-privilege to witness how mindful and powerful He is!

YESSSSS! I can move on na! Few more steps pa and I got my Form 5 (registraton card)!! Went to the cashier to pay for my tuition and ID!

Went to Univ shopping center to buy a Lanyard and UP shirt and then ate at Rodics. So clueless, sisig yung inorder ko, Tapsilog pala yung best seller dun! Awww next time na lang.

Went back to Eduk and confirmed if enrolled na ba talaga ako pagkabayad ng tuition.

Me: Enrolled na po ba ako (showing my Form 5)?

The office of the college secretary staff : Oo, enrolled ka na.

Whoa. This is it Dad! Student na talaga akong muli! Seryoso? UP student na talaga ang little girl na nangarap!!  I know You'll continue to save me, Dad! Have Your way in me in this new season. Kamsahamnida Appa!

He turned the rock into a pool of water; yes, a spring of water flowed from solid rock. - Psalm 114:8 NLT

Yes, a spring of water flowed from UP!

Is this the end of us?

After almost 8 years of living, studying, worshipping, believing, fighting,  reminiscing, laughing, cooking, eating, shopping (bargaining), singing, praying  and dreaming together. Is this the end?

Things become even more meaningful when you know there's  a possibility that it's the last. I just remembered, yesterday was  Jenny's  last day in our boarding house and who knows? Maybe the last day of of living  in the same room, in the same house? Ah, my heart.

It's not her birthday but I just want to honor her for being a friend everyone could ask for - selfless. I remember praying as a child, I really really wanted to have a best friend (one that you can be with in any season and one that would just listen) and that's  what I found in her. God gave her and I always say to her that she's such an evidence that I am indeed  BLESSED and FAVORED!!!

Oh memories rushing in!

When she let me stay with her in her uncle's house in Tondo.
How she cooked adobong galunggong. Nung Deep Sea pa yung ulam namin or kaya hati kami sa isang ulam.
When she comfort me when I cried  nung nag ta tatype ako sa cp nya ng mahabang document tapos biglang nabura!
When we first heard the Gospel!
When I did One 2 One with her and eventually her Victory Weekend.
When we discovered Arce Dairy's Avocado Ice cream and all our Friday nights.
When we watched movies ng sabay sa makahiwalay na smartphone para kunwari sabay kami nanonood.

And of course everytime she'll like my "luto" and say " ang sarap Ycs!!!!" My love languages are acts of service and  then words fo affirmation kaya naman , feeling ko acts of service  nya for me tuwing kakainin nya ang luto ko. hihihi. As always, She's my number 3 fan.

I sighed. Waah. Am gonna miss her. Kahit na alam ko sabay pa din kami makakapag service the Victory Baliwag mga twice  a month. Hehe.  Ang drama ko lang.

She was there in black with last words in the room we shared. She said "Magkikita pa tayo, Ycs."

She simply knows I need assurance.

Is this the end of us? Nope. It's just the start of the new season.

Oh me of little faith

My eyes still hurt. I cried hard at Mcdo yesterday. It was kinda embarrassing. Never thought I'll be that emotional. The super-excited me for my friend/ spiritual daughter's victory weekend suddenly hit a rock bottom. She'll not do it she said.

For now.

I was surprised and the tears just fell. It actually  communicate what's  obvious.

I'm scared.  Scared that the enemy is triumphing over stealing the Words  and faith that were planted  in her  heart.
I'm worried. Worried that because she feels okay na with her life again,  and therefore stop the fire for Him.
Worried that she might be one of the girls that I fail to establish in the faith thus missed out a lot.
I'm insecure. I felt that I'm not good enough or that I just really can't be her leader. I can't lead well. Oh no, what did I do wrong?
I'm disappointed. It's like a wedding was just postponed when everything's almost ready. But not the bride.

Now that I'm writing it, the more I realized... Oh me of little faith!

There's no fear in love right?
Do not worry, instead pray for everything right?
You can only lead by His grace right?
It's only by the power of the Holy Spirit uy!
Everything will be beautiful in His time. He's in control! Oh me of little faith!

I surrendered and I still lead the VG last night with bawled eyes  and red face.

Like always, I wanted to ask, "Dad, what am I gonna do?"

and I know He'll answer, "Trust Me."

Ngiting "Lord I trust You with her life" 

24th Birthday

You are altogether beautiful, my darling, beautiful in every way. - Song of songs 4:7

Princess in Awe at 24! Started the day with this from Daddy God. Hahahaha. (Sabe ko na talaga and ganda ko eh) #theSweetest

My heart was so full already and then there's a student who played saxophone for me, and then I received and read your messages with or without pictures (over, sobra na ako pero pwede nyo ba isulat at iabot sa akin pag nagkita tayo? love love letters), I got yakult, sterilized milk and  stick Os from officemates,  then I got a cake (thanks Cha! Sobrang desire ko talaga ang cake for my birthday!), phone call, prayers, opportunity to lead VGs, be with spiritual daughters,  and then on my bed, a surprise gift!

But then beyond all that, I saw how God blessed me so much of great people to meet in 24 years! Can't help but remember our moments together guys! I realized how I miss most of them  and how awesome it is to still to spend time with those who are around me in this season!

I realized, ang saya saya mag birthday!  PINUSUAN KO NG MALAKI sa PUSO ko ang bawat greetings promise! Challenging pala talaga to like or comment sa bawat isa.

Here's my prayer for you, my reader and for all of them:

Romans 15:13 New International Version (NIV)

13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Kamsahamnida to Appa!

Ycah @ 23

It's the last day of being a 23 year-old. :(

There's something special when something is about to end right?I just want things to be remembered.  Thus,  I am now writing the things that happened in my 23rd year on earth.


1. I applied and short-listed for missions in Thailand.
2. I partnered with Ate Marian (Egypt and Jordan)
3. I met Cha. (my brother's first gf) and I am now doing 121 with her! I'm so happy!
3. Inang passed away. :(
4. We met Tito Cesar.
5. Jhared sarted writing and going to school.
6. Baby Stephen was born!
7. Angelo went back to school.
8. Kasama ko sa service si Mac, Nanay and Angelo!
9. I met and do 121 with Yana (from Dumaguete),  Yvonne, Micah, Luisa, Abi and Eloisa (from Tuguegarao)
10. Started to have VG in the workplace (I met Trixie, Shim, Ana, Wilma, Sandra, Heidi, Stella, Hillary, Pauline, Andrea and Luna.)
11. I attended a School of world missions graduation (visited EN Phase 2 building)
12. I took an exam at UP
13. I enrolled for Leadership 113.
14. Became a part of Ate Jen's Leadership group.
15. Attended the ONE conference and met Ate Ana (a missionary for Israel.)
16. I dyed my hair! (by Jennytots)
17. Three times best teacher!