PY BY

thank you for the words.

the words..these are the words...

they release because of you...imprinted..encoded.

I used to tell myself that I'll never ever write about you ever again.

but you are the words.

years and letters...

IT FELT LIKE EMPTY

but I'll never be empty of words

for you who never heed

the emotions

it also be on a wonder

how was it like

for the psychological consciousness to be gone

i just realize that it's hard

really hard

do I really have to hit the ground literally

i know it's only in the mind

i know it's only in the memory

i thought memories are the best things.

I WISH I'LL BE LIKE GU JUN PYO AT THIS MOMENT

TO FORGET THAT PERSON YOU THINK TOO MUCH OF

YOU LOVE SO MUCH

even loving him confuses me.

am i?do i?did i?

Finding humorous more serious.

Station: Super Radyo DZBB 594
Program: Bangon na Bayan
Time: November 28, 2011 5:00 – 6:00 AM


Finding humorous more serious.
“ So hindi totoo ito: ‘ Life threatening na po talaga and it can lead sa pagpaparalisa ng malaking bahagi ng katawan’ ( a recorded statement of GMA’s Lawyer). Eto pa si Mrs. Horn, si Maria Elena Bautista.
‘Pag may nangyaring masama sa amo ko, kasalanan nila!’ (Recorded statement)”
Melo del Parado made the commentary about the Arroyo case humorous in a way. The fact that it’s not a mere delivery of news – he’s making people realize what’s not right in the situation through catchy comments that everyone can comprehend. They keep and keep on playing those recorded statements well as saying arguments like “Lawyers are not doctors and a doctor will never risk his professionalism (it’s indicated to their vowed oath not to lie) and high salary of course; and that Dr. Mario Ver is expected to earn more now, especially that he dare to reveal the truth – that GMA is recovering and currently considered as an outpatient. “
‘ Life threatening na po talaga and it can lead sa pagpaparalisa ng malaking bahagi ng katawan’
Played the recorded statement again, then, another related news that DOJ Sec. De Lima wants to have an investigation for GMA’s lawyers as for lying about her real condition.
And here comes the new illness. The lawyers are now saying that GMA is having a diarrhea. For this, del Trado uttered (which made me laugh so much) “ Bakit yung mg abugado ni dating Pangulung Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo, ayaw siyang gumaling? Tayo nga, gusto nating gumaling,dahil hindi tayo naghahangad ng ksamaaan kahit sa kaaway. Kristyano tayo eh?!”
Then there’s a correspondent reporting about the ocular inspection of Pasay RTC 112 at the detention cell of Southern Police distinct where GMA is possible to detain. Melo del Tardo is constantly saying stuff like if GMA is fit to be out of the hospital, is she fit to be convicted? Or fit to be back home sweetly?
Now del Parado keeps on aiming the statement from GMA’s lawyer again about the house arrest motion. “ Walang comfort ng bahay ang Detention Cell, kaya baka po bumagsak ang katawan”
This kind of treatment of the Arroyo Case made me think so much about it, things indeed become clear. I’m hoping it made our fellow Filipino’s realize as well that this former President of ours (who’s not supposed to be a president) is simply feeling the hell out of us. So effective and I love the humorous way to deal with it seriously,

unread

The passion for something that I'm not doing is the passion that mostly made me write. Reading is my passion' and I'm doubting myself for that statement. Books that are waiting for my attention, characters that are more than willing to reveal themselves to me and places that I can never imagine of visiting- I want them all and I miss them.

It's a dream and a fulfillment to finish a book.

It's even a bonus if the words printed on it remained in me or inspire me to write as well ( I KNOW I LOVE A WRITER IF HE/SHE WILL INSPIRE ME TO WRITE).

Sometimes, I thought reading books is a race - a race in slow motion effect,appreciating what's around, but it's so slow that you stop at times then back at the race and forget the places and people you've passed through.

I have here the books that are suggested or that is my dream to read real soon.

1. The Diary of Anne Frank (bare with me Gabby)
2. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (the Harry-Potter-Fan-To-Be is STRANDED)
3. By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept (currently enjoying)
4. For One More Day (pending since second year high school)
5. Numerous books from booksale!!!!!

I'm actually looking forward for a best friend please...

book...

be with paper and pen?

58 (Lives and bylines ended)

They thought they wouldn’t kill…

Shot at the mouth…at the breast…at the vagina. They thought they wouldn’t kill, women; he thought that spotted you invisibly on the face. These women, escorted by numerous media men we’re inhumanly killed exactly two years ago tomorrow - and the justice? It’s far from being served. The ingredients we’re there, winking, shining and stunning but the blinded eyes of justice chooses not heed, not to see for the fairness but for impunity.

The bigger the enemy, the uphill the fight, the elusive the justice; the tree beside the site of the massacre is still alive and standing strong – as if willing to fight for all the lives. The truth comes, after two years; the victim’s families that were supposed to be a hundred times more alive and strong were slowly looking around and down. The harsher the realities, the harsher the situation and the harsher the effects than losing someone you loved so much brutally are around them (they have to face that every single day for two years) – the harsh choice. The choice between the justice for the one you loved that is killed inhumanly or the stomach and lives of the family that is remained in this cruel country. Justice or Php 20 Million (yes, there were rampant offers for the victim’s families)? Choose. Imagine what this massacre had to do with those lives. As time goes by, they were all fighting the urge of accepting, and if they did, we can never really blame them; for the situation leaving them with no choice especially the becoming hopeless families. The enemy is that big, the fight is that uphill and the justice is that elusive.

The mastermind is so obvious, apparently, EVERYTHING is obvious here. Nothing vague, nothing unclear, everyone’s a witness and everyone’s smart enough; But still, this cultured impunity of country (how could we all take this every day?) is to stay ( I’m afraid for this). The culture that those people don’t really discovered but made it to happen. Not solved this, not solved that, people would talk about this, people would talk about that, not solved and not solved.

“Warlordism”, pollution of the police, government and military, the effects on the press freedom “isusulat ko pa ito?,baka magalit si Mayor” (it’s not true that were not affected); the system is bad, it is really a long fight for a country that democracy is just a rumored thing.

58- Two digit number, part of statistics and a part of history (were hoping and praying that it’ll go beyond that- part of statistics and a part of history);is the reality, lives and bylines that are numbered, could ever know and fight for their ideals and names?

my I am Statements

I’m Jessica and I wish to be the heroine that I’m not: beautiful and clever. The statement tells how I look at myself: I’m not beautiful and clever so I’m not fitted to be a heroine that a hero would protect and love. But I am a daughter, learner, supporter, dreamer and prayer.

I am a daughter with a happy heart when my family is happy, with a helping hand that is more than willing to make things easier for them and with gentle words to encourage them whenever they feel that all hope is lost. An “ate”, a “pamangkin”, and an apo for my brother, aunt and grandmother that is always there for them.

I am a learner. I am a student. More than the grades, I’m looking forward to learn to become better and to understand more than to know. I am a self- proclaimed “God’s Scholar” and it is my greatest fear to disappoint Him or for Him to ever think that I am not worthy for His grace.

I am a supporter (or people used to call a “Fan”). I am a proud seven-year supporter of the local band “Sponge Cola”; so long that somehow they’ve become my identity. Their influence in me range from my interest in English, poetry, music, movies, books to the course I’d taken up. I think the supporter me is also a lifetime.

I am a dreamer. To be one- inch behind the microphone or for the name in the by-line. Doubts, discouragements and fear would always be there but I used to tell myself “Just Do It!” Do it with all your heart. I believe that it’s a God-given dream so I’ll fight for it.

I am a prayer. I can’t imagine being a daughter, learner, supporter and dreamer without asking for God’s guidance, my life basically depended and depends on it.

I am Jessica. Regarding being a heroine? I’ll be. For in my story with God as my hero… I am clever, I am beautiful…