Monday, September 26, 2011

Losing Worries


It’s always been on a wonder how I’m not regularly writing, it comes to a point that I would think that maybe, I’m just a hypocrite or a trying hard-convincing myself that I love writing. Yet, I can’t even find a time for it. (okay.fine.you say, “what’s new with that?”) well apparently,there is , really new this time. Add-ons,you can call it.now, what’s on a wonder is how I’m not writing about the most special part of this life- spiritual growth and the most breakthrough that could ever happen.

In a few months,it’ll be a year-attending a Christian fellowship church named Victory (well,I’m not supposed to write about that really,it’s another long post if God allow me to or help me to). One thing that I want to share first about that is the “on-fire” feeling with God about each service, I would always say “high na high talaga after Victory”. Well indeed it’s always a feeling of being high on the ground,flying and flying with happiness because of Jesus.All the preaches we’re good and I’ll forever regret that I didn’t even write about those (yes,again,the kind of girl who always want everything to be documented)

You think that’s all?well,we’re not even starting yet,in my opinion. (read: that’s for your information)

The last two preachings ( I mean this week’s preachings,for I am attending the Thursday service with my housemates and Friday service with my friends) hit me that straight to the heart and I think everyone of us could relate to-it’s all about WORRIES and DREAMS.It’s a series break so it’s a choice from a pastor what to share to us.

Worries/ worrying was preached by Pastor Ryan B. Tan (Pastor Ryan as we call him), I must say that I like this more,but it doesn't mean that I like “Dreams” any less (WHAT?HAHA.STARFRUIT)

Please allow me to share the “ ycah thoughts” about that.

1. worrying is a sin. For everything that is not associated with faith is sin. ( I really feel very much sorry)

2. worrying is as if putting your finger to God while saying “I DON’T TRUST YOU FOR YOU’RE NOT TRUSTWORTHY”( It must be ‘Til I see you’ on the background while you’re reading this.)

But what do we most worry about? All the examples of those hit me,yess,almost,almost all.

1. Academics

2. Finances

3. Family

4. Relationship

5. Future

6. Health

What?yes,not almost,really,all.. I was worried about that all!!!!!!!

1. Academics (all the “undoings” midterms,finals,requirements,grades)

2. Finances (the word is enough)

3. Family ( to disappoint them,their health or something

4. Relationship (this is supposed to be number 1)

5. Future (loads of unemployed in the Philippines and I’m nearly graduating,fierce competition out there)

6. Health (Dengue ‘nuff said)

We may all think that worrying is,just normal,certainly I learned that it’s not. It’es the enemies’ very rampant way of losing our faith

Two words must be remembered though for you to stop worrying:

1. Father

Consider God,not just your Lord,King or creator but most especially a loving Father;a Big God who can provide us anything that we need.(consider that fact that He already gave us His precious Son). We may not have a good father but He is the father we ought to have a relationship with in this life. (Pastor Ryan’s example is himself being a father)

2. First

Always. Put. God. First.

Pastor Ryan showed us a video of a “losing-weight-without-gym-or-exercise-but-still-eating-a-lot product commercial,you just have to sprinkle it to the food and it’ll magically not make you gain weight. “So kahit isang Lechon pa ang kainin mo,hindi ka tataba” as I quote him. What-a-stupid commercial isn’t it? Well you know what’s more stupid?if you big food is you life and you just thought that just a sprinkle of Jesus would save you.Have a relationship with Him!

Of course there’s more to the preaching than what I’ve stated,more laughs,more prayers. Whoa,this is long already and Dreams would have to be a separated post I think (when would that be?hm.)

I have an early present for you though, as I end.

YOU.CAN.DOWNLOAD THE PREACHING!CLICK HERE: www.victoryubelt.org/youthseries and listen to different preachings that I hope would help you in life as well.Live by for a lifetime and eternally with God.

Over You For Real

Guess I’m not ‘because I’m writing this.

5 months of trying not to communicate with him,isolating myself from him (you read the word: trying). But indeed it’s the farthest that this could go ( wait,I’m wrong,it’s not supposed to be the superlative). Let me just summarize the five months in a nutshell (sound redundant eh?) no GM’s from each other,he doesn't have my number anymore, no text,trying the ‘not-viewing-his-profile-and-twitter” principle, but still can’t refrain myself from talking about him or saying his name. He asked how I am once via twitter, I replied. Well then, yesterday is different. Was and Is different.

Opportunity to call for free, I don’t know what come to me; I just dial,not thinking,not thinking at all. I’ve already given up when he texted “bkit k mzcol”. Not thinking again (another term for setting aside the brain), I replied (well,I honestly can’t remember by details) “ Kwentuhan tayo,ycah to”. “Text ako pag pwede na tumawag” I took a deep breath all the time. I can’t tell how I’m feeling exactly but it’s like being stiff inside yet you have to move normally. Improper breathing,improper living,improperly doing this.

So he texted,I’m ready not to call him,to back-out,to just continue my so-called principle,but my friend already dialed it “calling….______”WHAAAAAAT?!!!!!!!

“Hello….bakit?”his voice oh my…his voice.

“Wala lang” the cheap me..oh my…the cheap me…

“Victory,Amoranto,Summer Camp,Dyna,may makikitext….”

And it ended.

Just like on the reports on Comm. Theories earlier,girls are really after the emotion.

The feeling? How was it? Hey?!

I blinked, I guess. Oh,it seems…(wait! Before that,I did that (calling him) because I believe for the resurrection, I believe at dreaming on. I was thinking ( I’m not really not thinking, maybe…

Maybe…we could be friends again (the dream that I've already given up,the situation that is impossible in all the impossible situations, the one that I buried and accepted ( I think not fully,you can say).

Oh,it seems….

I've got a right decision for the last five months.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Losing Worries


It’s always been on a wonder how I’m not regularly writing, it comes to a point that I would think that maybe, I’m just a hypocrite or a trying hard-convincing myself that I love writing. Yet, I can’t even find a time for it. (okay.fine.you say, “what’s new with that?”) well apparently,there is , really new this time. Add-ons,you can call it.now, what’s on a wonder is how I’m not writing about the most special part of this life- spiritual growth and the most breakthrough that could ever happen.

In a few months,it’ll be a year-attending a Christian fellowship church named Victory (well,I’m not supposed to write about that really,it’s another long post if God allow me to or help me to). One thing that I want to share first about that is the “on-fire” feeling with God about each service, I would always say “high na high talaga after Victory”. Well indeed it’s always a feeling of being high on the ground,flying and flying with happiness because of Jesus.All the preaches we’re good and I’ll forever regret that I didn’t even write about those (yes,again,the kind of girl who always want everything to be documented)

You think that’s all?well,we’re not even starting yet,in my opinion. (read: that’s for your information)

The last two preachings ( I mean this week’s preachings,for I am attending the Thursday service with my housemates and Friday service with my friends) hit me that straight to the heart and I think everyone of us could relate to-it’s all about WORRIES and DREAMS.It’s a series break so it’s a choice from a pastor what to share to us.

Worries/ worrying was preached by Pastor Ryan B. Tan (Pastor Ryan as we call him), I must say that I like this more,but it doesn't mean that I like “Dreams” any less (WHAT?HAHA.STARFRUIT)

Please allow me to share the “ ycah thoughts” about that.

1. worrying is a sin. For everything that is not associated with faith is sin. ( I really feel very much sorry)

2. worrying is as if putting your finger to God while saying “I DON’T TRUST YOU FOR YOU’RE NOT TRUSTWORTHY”( It must be ‘Til I see you’ on the background while you’re reading this.)

But what do we most worry about? All the examples of those hit me,yess,almost,almost all.

1. Academics

2. Finances

3. Family

4. Relationship

5. Future

6. Health

What?yes,not almost,really,all.. I was worried about that all!!!!!!!

1. Academics (all the “undoings” midterms,finals,requirements,grades)

2. Finances (the word is enough)

3. Family ( to disappoint them,their health or something

4. Relationship (this is supposed to be number 1)

5. Future (loads of unemployed in the Philippines and I’m nearly graduating,fierce competition out there)

6. Health (Dengue ‘nuff said)

We may all think that worrying is,just normal,certainly I learned that it’s not. It’es the enemies’ very rampant way of losing our faith

Two words must be remembered though for you to stop worrying:

1. Father

Consider God,not just your Lord,King or creator but most especially a loving Father;a Big God who can provide us anything that we need.(consider that fact that He already gave us His precious Son). We may not have a good father but He is the father we ought to have a relationship with in this life. (Pastor Ryan’s example is himself being a father)

2. First

Always. Put. God. First.

Pastor Ryan showed us a video of a “losing-weight-without-gym-or-exercise-but-still-eating-a-lot product commercial,you just have to sprinkle it to the food and it’ll magically not make you gain weight. “So kahit isang Lechon pa ang kainin mo,hindi ka tataba” as I quote him. What-a-stupid commercial isn’t it? Well you know what’s more stupid?if you big food is you life and you just thought that just a sprinkle of Jesus would save you.Have a relationship with Him!

Of course there’s more to the preaching than what I’ve stated,more laughs,more prayers. Whoa,this is long already and Dreams would have to be a separated post I think (when would that be?hm.)

I have an early present for you though, as I end.

YOU.CAN.DOWNLOAD THE PREACHING!CLICK HERE: www.victoryubelt.org/youthseries and listen to different preachings that I hope would help you in life as well.Live by for a lifetime and eternally with God.

Over You For Real

Guess I’m not ‘because I’m writing this.

5 months of trying not to communicate with him,isolating myself from him (you read the word: trying). But indeed it’s the farthest that this could go ( wait,I’m wrong,it’s not supposed to be the superlative). Let me just summarize the five months in a nutshell (sound redundant eh?) no GM’s from each other,he doesn't have my number anymore, no text,trying the ‘not-viewing-his-profile-and-twitter” principle, but still can’t refrain myself from talking about him or saying his name. He asked how I am once via twitter, I replied. Well then, yesterday is different. Was and Is different.

Opportunity to call for free, I don’t know what come to me; I just dial,not thinking,not thinking at all. I’ve already given up when he texted “bkit k mzcol”. Not thinking again (another term for setting aside the brain), I replied (well,I honestly can’t remember by details) “ Kwentuhan tayo,ycah to”. “Text ako pag pwede na tumawag” I took a deep breath all the time. I can’t tell how I’m feeling exactly but it’s like being stiff inside yet you have to move normally. Improper breathing,improper living,improperly doing this.

So he texted,I’m ready not to call him,to back-out,to just continue my so-called principle,but my friend already dialed it “calling….______”WHAAAAAAT?!!!!!!!

“Hello….bakit?”his voice oh my…his voice.

“Wala lang” the cheap me..oh my…the cheap me…

“Victory,Amoranto,Summer Camp,Dyna,may makikitext….”

And it ended.

Just like on the reports on Comm. Theories earlier,girls are really after the emotion.

The feeling? How was it? Hey?!

I blinked, I guess. Oh,it seems…(wait! Before that,I did that (calling him) because I believe for the resurrection, I believe at dreaming on. I was thinking ( I’m not really not thinking, maybe…

Maybe…we could be friends again (the dream that I've already given up,the situation that is impossible in all the impossible situations, the one that I buried and accepted ( I think not fully,you can say).

Oh,it seems….

I've got a right decision for the last five months.